Things changed again.
After few months,
I've thought that the sweet
ending came true;

But, it didn't.

Making things more impossible.
I don't know that
it will forever continue
as it is.

Making things so difficult.
To-and-Fro
Again and again.

Please..
Spare a thought for this situation.
You ain't doing this to my mum
for the rest of ur lives.

You think using ur
shit black magic to attack
my family is good rite?

To let us suffer
and end up dying slowly.

What could we do?
What should we do?
Useless.

God BLESS u lah.
go burn in HELL.

I still remember
you said,
life is just like a rainbow
when things changed recently.

it doesnt go mback
to that miraclethat have been expected.

My mum's tumor
started growning back.
so miracle-ly.

called for treatment again
these three days.
but couldnt contact the one
which usually go for treatment.

how kaox it is.
mum's going for treatment
on another place,
not in singapore.

sighs.

I noe you have always wanted this
to happen.


I just don't wanna start all over again
anymore.

From the start;
Commiting, everything.

sorry..

had kenduri at
late aunty's hse.

big FEAST.

wahahaha.

=DD

aiyerrr.
should have gone to chingay
today,

coz.
its better than last year
when i saw it in tv live
on channel eight.

sumore have fireworks.
=XXX.

did not go out today.
stayed at home all day.

fixed my guitar strings.
bought the second set of strings
coz yesterday while tuning
broke again. =X

now.
guitar's back to condition.
the strings gotta be seasoned first.
hehs.

trying my luck in playing reminisions
by a7X;
but only halfway
the solo part.

kayyys.
btw, chanegd blog song again.
ive got the pieces live version
BUT with the symphony band at the last part.
cant get to find it on the net.

nehmind.
i'm hungry now.

tataaa people~

Maybe i should stop
thinking about the past.

It's over already,
RITE?

So, stop waiting,
and waiting
like an idiot
till that uber-miracle happens.
bahhhhhhhhhhh.

back to school.
TOMORROW,
i'll be having
molecular biology test.

And DAM me still here,
in front of the computer.
surfing, chatting
doing things that are wasting time.

OMG.
ohkaeeeee.
at 9pm sharp.
i 'll go studyyyyyy.

molecular bio;
danggg.
si bei hard siao
DNA,RNA
genes, mRNA
they are exploding my head.

sighs.
i hope the coming real exam
i must pass.
or else have to repeat for another year.

wakakakakaka.
btw,bought the guitar strings.
but dunnoe how to fix it.
hehs.

im off now to studyyy.
like real.
hope i can study till 2am or 3am.
and NOT doze off.

and even i didnt even start
reading my lecture number one,
till the recent one.

fail.
or pass?

aiyerrrrrrrrrrr.
okae lar.
make sure i pass can le.

I guess everything

somehow many things
like many other things,

end with a tragic ending.
if being related to shit life.

Same goes to relationships.

RARELY relationships end
with happiness.
or anything of what you think of.

So,
that's what most people expect.
RIGHT?

whenever someone asks me
to do for em their blogskin,

it appears that it will appear
nicer than my own blogskin.
LOL.

lalala.
so i created another new skin
for myself.

have been designing skins
and more skins,
for people who asked me to do for em'

it can actually take me one whole day.
finding the photoshop brushes
palettes etc.

kays.
have to go now.

gonna spend the
family day by the
sun,sand and the sea
at east coast today.

latersssss.

just woke up.
had breakfast.
phew.

yesterday happenings.
went to esplanade.
set off from home around 8pm.
with Taufan,Hazeeq and Ying.

in the mrt.
Mat Reps and another group
started a fight
IN the mrt.
one of the guy from the other grp
got kicked and flown away
to the seat.

me and taufan were just laughing away.
so wad they are staring at us.
they are just so stupid.
around secondary school age.
think they are so big.
in the end;
they say sorry to each other.
wad a scene.
malays nowadays.
aiyerrr.

me and taufan went to milennia walk 1st.
to buy drinks at B and W
while hazeeq and ying went up the highway first.

reached there.
truckloads of people.
saw loads of frends there.
from my school
and from semb sec.

regretted going there
we thought of taking loads of pix
but end up we went
to the bridge highway.

the fireworks starting at 12am exact.
so we waited and waited.
ice cream,
popcorn.
bleahhh we ate.

i saw someone who looked
alike like sylvester
nahh. wrong person
to be exact,
the hair,the face.
ha.

talked and talked
joked and joked.
take pixies.
but ying so shy le.
didnt take with us.
nehmind.

everything ends so nice
took a video of the fireworks
10 mins.

lepak-ed a while.
then home.
reached home around 2am plus.
weeeee~

this are some of the pics taken
from mine and hazeeq's fone.


-at semb mrt station.


-taufan and hazeeq.


-me and taufan.


-at the highway bridge.


-again.


-nth better to do.


-scenery at bride's view


-fier-ing taufan.


-tired.


-back at city hall mrt


-i was cut off the pic.=X


-take again lar. =)


-lalala.


-the first set


-maroon. pink set


-different shapes.


-shooting fast


-coming nearer to us.


-flying up.


-shooting up with more ground shaking.


-another set; so bright


-this's nice.


-fireworks.


-ending soon.


-the finale.

OMG.

2nd last string.
my guitar string broke off;
while playing the song
qing fei de yi.

lucky i wore specs.
it directly hit my specs.
just another luckiness.
or not i would be blind.
another problem came again.
heh.

changed blog song again.
bahhhh.

back to school.
had my general microbio phase test
pretty easy.
saw a lot of microbes in my slide
with the microscope.

next week;
will be having lab safety test.
plus molecular bio test too.

am having tests and tests
this few weeks.
the exam coming soon.

aiyerrrr.

bored.
still havent done my last touch-up
on my last programming.
yesterday i got to crack
speedupmypc ver 2.5
woots.
extraodinary good.
heh.

hmmm.
money. money. money
have been hunting for jobs
this few weeks.
the one at delifrance toa payoh
gonna try out soon.
if hadi and the other corleones wanna work.

i had to pay my own bill
which now my bank money
decreased to $2.11.
poor thing.

kay people;
im off.

aiyerr.
doing this out of boredom.

composed this song
and the lyrics myself.

i'm in your heart tonight.
acoustic.

i managed to embed the song to my blog.

my,my.

took me hrs finding the music hosting site.

bahhhhhh.

Oh my.
This look fuckin' sweet.
uh-uh..

Take a look past the mirror
If you can,
And I'm sure well see more of this tomorrow,
If you just believe
That your really here
And that we would do
Anything
In our power
To repair
Your shattered life.

We'll pick up the pieces
Of the sky;
We'll throw away the black,
And hand you rays of light
And warm sleeping stars
in their blanket of navy velvet.

We'll hold your heart for you
And wrap it in bubbles,
If it means it wont sink
Into what we've felt
And what we'll leave all behind
As soon as your clock starts ticking again.
for you..

And we can all lie in the grass like we used to,
Plucking white petals from daisies
And blowing dandelions into the flawless blue sky;
Counting how many butterfly wings
We spy dancing through the air.

Or maybe we could think about that instead
And just sit and talk
About memories that we've found again
Buried deep beneath sandcastles
And hidden inside shells by the sea
That hold time preciously within their curves.

And we can crack open rusty, cold hearts
And peer inside
To see what used to be,
Then pair them off
With a one way ticket
Into the pale horizon.

And He'll give you a new one,
If you just ask.
And if He rejects,
Then I'll gladly fix up mine
And pass it on to you,
Wrapped up in your favourite colour
And fashioned with ribbons and glitter.

Then we can seize the day
And steal all the time we can,
Because we're gonna live this life through,
All the way, sweetheart,
And there's nothing that can stop us
From living our dreams
Out fucking loud.


Oh my.
memorable days.
i had;
in the past.

fragments unforgotten;
end.

not been blogging
for quite some time.

today,
went to to the gym
had my amino acid supplement
the night before.

and oh my GOD.
it really works real fine.
heee.

3 hrs of intense
workout.
with breaks in between,
of course.

soon after that,
went to khatib wit Hadi.
yea. only two of us.
Raihan got blisters.
Faris needa go jammin'
Manan needa go to the clinic.
sumore who?
all busy
aiyerrr.

went to khatib.
i loved my old house.
at khatib of course.
how i wished i would not moved out
to sembawang.

went to northland primary school.
not inside.
seen the changes.
walking down there
really makes me think the times
when i was still a kid
in primary school.

how shiookkk it is.
to reminisce back the pastimes.
talked about all the devil behaviour
espeacially Hadi.
loads of crapp jokes.

ohkae.
im tired.

the old guitar
haqeel's friend took it back.
but nehmind.
Taufan faithfully
gave Hazeeq,
which is my brother
his guitar.

ha.
at least i lose nothing
a black.
white stringed guitar.
nice.
=DDD.

at last
i got to figure out
this program called
t-search.

phewww.

wpe pro;
speedgear;
xelerator;
laiji.
+recent t-search.
hee.

all done.
with my programmings.
im gonna strike BIG.

weeeee~~

haizz.
i don't want sumone to go thru'
what i went thru' last year.

but.
somehow of what i said
are all meaningless
and useless rite?

and it had happened.
slashing,bleeding
and hurting your heart.

i don't wanna
feel the same feeling back
in those days back.

pleaseeee;
its not the end yet for you.
and critisizing yourself makes it worser.

just..
tc.
of urself.

did my pathetic recordings.
heh.
whole day; yesterday
fingers cialat.

figured out how to play
tiger lily by matchbook romance
easy song.
only 4 chords.
heh.
took bout 1 hr only.
=DDD

had my seminar earlier
in the morning.
was pretty okaee.

back to school.
had lab safety phase test,
had microbio test;
had general microbio test;
more tests coming up.

aiyerr.

latersss.

these are some of the pics
from my frend's digicam
of last week's corleone's party


-yeaaa. at last fire is burning.=)

-messyyyy

-the corleone's sons. lol.

-yummy. yumm yumm.

-at last we got to play synchronisely

-massimo raylimo corleone

-eh? forgot the lyrics. lol.

it happens for a reason.

i don't want it to brood over me anymore.
I've wasted my time on all these things.
Thinking back,
I've left all my dreams behind.

That thought you gave,
would it happen?

`sighs.

If were gonna meet again,
things will seriously change.
it won't be like the past anymore.

thanks lots.
wil be missin' you.

to you.
sorry..

alrite.
last saturday+sunday happenings
was truckloads of hips of fun.

bbq gathering.
at sembawang park.

we set off at 1pm.
fortunately those who goes for the bbq
have to pay $10 each.
ha.

there was about like 14 people there.
Hadi,Faris,Manan,Khai,Jy,Saiful
Asrol,Fadli,Raihan and Syazwan
and me of course.
Plus
the girls;
Amalina,Khaty,Nuraini and Syafiqah
came at night.

1st thing at 2 plus.
WHOOOSHHH.
RAINNN..
SUPER HEAVY RAIN

too bad we continued the bbq in the rain.
with us dam soaked with rain.
played in the rain.
with the percussion performing at the hill of the park
and we were like shouting at dem'

like.
'ppl of smb park,
we want u to follow the samba beat
and like all of us who repeated back.
haha. =P

played soccer.
with the SAMBA beat.
haha.
our dribbles have to folo the beat.
lol.
4 by 4.
no goalkeeper.
was fun with the big track deserted

Asrol and Fadli are the ones busy
bbq-ing and lighting the fire.
ME? shake legs. ha.
waiting for food to come.

after eating and eating
and still hungry and hungrier
after seeing food arriving again and again.

THEN.
RAIN come again.
this time more harsh
so dam heavy.

see lar.
never pray the night before
to ask not rain to come.
lol.

i brought my guitar.
Plus Fadli's.
Plus Faris's.
sang the song
'Don't you cry'
full song.
with bassist;Manan
rhythm;Faris
and lead;Jian Yong

and other songs too.
that was what we do in the rain
with guitars dam blody wet
sumore got water in the hole of the guitar.
lol.

but.
singing in the rain
with this song.
wow.
power lah.

played taidi.
blackjack too.

played.
ate.
played.
ate.
all in the rain.
till 5 plus.

shiokkkkkkkkkkk.haha =))

and me.
so stupid.
never wear cap.
see lar.
wear wax on hair.
till all flat.
with the wax drippers coming down
on the fringe.
aiyooo.

night time.
girls came.
but for a while
3 hrs likeddat

everyone pooned $2 each
bought pizza
canadian 2 for 1 pizza

while waiting for pizza
Faris,Jy,Fadli and me
went to sun plaza
bought more charcoal
more ice cubes.

chilled at faris's place
a while
but no one at home.
aiyerr.
wanted to try out his new electric guitar
nyehh.. nehmind.

headed back to sembawang park.
this time with more food
PLUS.
pizza
weeee~~~~

ate.
ate.
ate.

then i sang and played
'thank you mum acoustic'
solo.

memories.
this song for my mum
she's cured from nose cancer
thank GOD.
to the traditional treatment.
=))
and also
thanks truckloads,Karen.
for confiding me that time
x)

ohkaes.
after the long session
of singing
and eating
and singing
and eating;

it was so late at night
asrol and me left early
sumhow get on the last few buses
asrol needa go work the next day.
i've got seminar to attend to.

but.
i missed the birthday bash
Hadi's birthday!
wahh.
missed it.

alritey.
thanks people.

this party was helluva
truckloads of fun.
=DDDDDDDDD

looking forward
to the chalet this april
hee.
=)

this are some of the pics
taken by my phone and
some from the digicam.


-blue breeze


-taidi time


- we played and sang don't cry by guns n roses


-guitar leisures again.


-raihan preparing the burner


-eatio time


-aiyerr. hot! hot!


-corleone's party!!


-at last rain have stopped for the time being


-WAHH. it takes us forever to start up the fire


-[Hadi] OII. help me start the fire lehhhh. =X

weeeeeeeeeee~~

ohkae.
long time didn't update.

first of all,
didn't go to school today.
dry coughs.
fever.
running nose.

just because yesterday
went home in the heavy rain.
and the other reason is
two days before that;
also went home in the rain too.

went to the doctor
only received one day MC.
like real only i can recover by tomorrow.

as long i can recover by saturday is good enough.
will be having the Corleone's Party.
someore its on the eve of Hadi's birthday.
confirm kena birthday bash.
wakakakaka. x)

here i am home alone.
bored to the max.
aiyerr.
even my friend asked me to learn
hands down acoustic.
no mood to find the tabs now.

yesterday got to play half the song.
in the end, my body became warmer and hotter.
then have to bathand sleep.
and today i bathed for like 6 times.

ohkae.
school is bad.
lab maths is terrible.
microbio is terrible.
general micro is terrible.

tests coming up soon.
wow.
i hope so not to stay back for another year
if i fail one of these modules.

one more thing.

ive encrypt all my javascripts

so that people cant view my source

its for safety and copyright infringement purposes.

if u wanna any of my scripts, just pm me.

i will provide on only each script.

alritey.
ive got nothing to do at home.
slack and rest.
and the guitar's,
haqeel's friend needing it soon.
hope not this week.
bringing it for the party this sat.

adios.
matogolocos.
aiyerr. wadever they spell it.