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Kays im back after so long.
Many things happen but too much to mention.
Anyways, yesterday i went for interview training
with my lecturer same with my other classmates.

comments on me were is i need eye contact always.
yeahs, i need to talk slower. :-P


My attachment placing dont know whether i can get or not.
at Schering-Plough Ltd at TUAS. =.=
So farrrrrrrr.
Its a pharmaceutical company.
Sometime nxt week or nxt 2 weeks, have to go for real interview.
OMGZ.
Here the link:
Schering-Plough Ltd


And i have to do database research and chemical lab testing.
Sounds good to me, but i hate research a bit. x.x


Whatever it is, i really looked forward to working there,
after my NS or maybe continue my studies 1st.
I read up the sites and they pay quite well.





Kays
I need to have a haircut soon.
Maybe later or tomorrow. Hmpfh.


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Anyways happy belatedd 17th birthdayy kkarrott!
all the best and have good days ahead ya..!




latersssssssssssss
=DD

You would always be the one
who listens to my deepest inquisitions.
Mending all the pieces of the life i had before..






I finally blog again.
Kays, these one month of holiday im having,
wouldnt be a good one unlike my past holidays.
I just dont know why.
Few days rotting at home..=.=


I just had a gathering with my classmates yesterday
Its like a bbq pit but it isnt
and these time round,
we bring our own food.
Though there are so much food leftover in the end.
Lol.
We played soccer and some did fishing =)



Talking about these,
maybe this is the last gathering we will be having.
No more lectures, tests and exams.
Attachment is coming soon.
Graduation is near soon
and we are reaching the peak soon.

In fact, we are all gonna
go on our separate ways after that..
Some will go poly, ns or even start working.
And go on ur separate ways...
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Sometimes i do wonder,
What would my life become after i finished my education..
after i did my ns..
after i got a stable job..

Things will change?.....





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I applied for a job at Night Safari,
one of the restaurants there.
Was not my kind of place.
So well...

And yesterday my brother helped me
filled up the form for application for a job
at ToysR'Us @ Suntec City.
Hope i will receive a call from them soon.
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Talking about my exams,
ya, they are over.
And the results will be up on the 4th of Oct.
Hope i could pass my this module.
Hopefullyy....


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I missed Late Grandma's loads,
especially all her naggings..
Though i feel pissed sumtimes,
But it sometimes make me realise now
some of them do make sense and how i missed her a lot...


I missed Late Zac loads toos..
I missed all her rantings esp about the computer,
whenever her brother download things that have spyware etc
which would cause all the lagging..
I still remember there was one time she called me
saying that her msn cant get thru and cant troubleshoot
and start cursing her brother non stop..
'nk masuk msn die kate trouble shoot..how leh? cekik dara punye budak eh..'





Its been 2 months plus when they left..
Haizzz..
I still dream of them whenever the time comes.
And i woke up, thinking back about the past..
thinking the happiness they had..
I cried when i really think too much of them.

And it will still leave a big scar on me and the others..


Haiz.. its all over..
They are actually gone....... forever.......
And only i could do,
is to say my prayers to them.....



I've never felt so low in my life,
never experienced such a critical blow in my life, ever.
The pain is excruciating; unimaginable agony.
Its worse, to think that the very words I preached
to others endlessly; faith and hope, would come back and haunt me.
The irony, the irony. haizz..


Thank You.

To the people who stood by me and supporting me in every possible manner.



Life do come and go..
Life is incredible..
We thought they would stay with us forever
especially the ones with loved..
But its just a thought..
They all go away without a trace,
without saying any last words..


Some things are better left unsaid,
And all I have are lasting dreams,
Our word's worth more this time it seems...

Kays,
changed back to original song in blog.




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I might stop blogging for a while,
due to some things that shoudnt be said.
Kayyssss,
Tataaa~~

Was watching tv.
Watching 9pm weekdays channel 8 drama show.

Just now the ending part so sedihhh.
Shuyang broke off with Weilun
and go to another guy.
Then Weilun met her and told her all her feelings
and spout out all from his chest.


I nearly shed a tear, but didnt come out.
aww. lols.
Hahks.







Anyways,
my lecturer called me.
OH DAMN. =.=
I have to go back to school this monday
for taking videos about the
crystal growing competition
and the nikon microscope
inter-singapore schools competiiton.

And why he choose me??? T_T
1.50 pm start.
ALl the way from sembawang to simei.



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This morning i woke up,
its already raining quite heavily.
But soon it stopped.

Yesterday was talking to Abg Wan,
for nearly 1 hr plus. LOLS.
His computer cant get on internet,
and the internet explorer icon gone.
All programs under 'accesories' on start programs,
all gone toos. lols.

I tried to help,
but by talking is really hard.
In the end, still cannot do anything.



Went to his house today,
Yeah, got it repaired.
I just installed back all the components
manually from the microsoft os cd. :DD

Taught him about HTML stuffs.
and how to edit his friendster profile.
WAHAHAS. He want to make a BLOG soon.
good larhs.~~
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Went back home after that.
Was boreddd.
My friend's planning to have a picnic at pasir ris parknext wednesday. =]]
I dont want to rottt at home.. =D

Anyways, i did a few recordings over and over again,
on the same song titled 'unintended'
Uploaded the song to my blog.
My 2nd,3rd and 4th finger!
WAKAO! is teared very rabak wan.

I learnt how to do FINGER PICKING on guitar!!
WEeEEeeeEeeeEeeeeeeeeEE~~~
Was a miracle, today.
Im so happy, at last i dont use guitar pick anymore.

And the song suits with picking not strumming.
Hahks.
And yah, it was quite tough to pick the guitar
PLUS singing. a bit kekok at first.
Tried my best and managed after all! =DD

And now i can play the song tentang kita by peterpan,
coz its finger picked. :DD

Kayyssss.
Im waiting for my carrot cake and bubble tea.
Asked my 3rd brother,Haqeel to buy for me at northpoint.
Neways he's going to yishun after all. =DD

WOOHOO!
MY EXAMS ARE OVER!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

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So what's next?
No more lectures, except QC but not impt after hols.
No more exams,
Waiting for industrial attachment(IA),
and after that graduateeeeee! =DD
Im having my one month of holidays starting from today!
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Hmm anyways, today's paper was quite okay.
I memorised transcription and translation of DNA like siao,
it DIDNT COME OUT! =///
wahhhs. took me whole night.
yesterday i slept at 3am.
woke up at 4am, studied till 5am.
slept at 6am.
then woke up at 6.30am to bath n get ready for school.

I was really scared and nervous.
coz this is the hardestttt module ive ever taken
and in fact my hardest paper in my whole life, SERIOUSLY.
LOts of memorisation.

Urrghhh. its over anyways. =D



AFter school today pool-ed at eastpoint,
with Abg wan,Haidir,Acit,Hanifah and Erina.
PLayed i think around 1 hr or 2 hr plus.
cant rememeber though. lols.
Then went home after that.
Slept during the whole journey back home in the train.

Was very fresh now. LOLS.
Hahks.
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This one month holiday?
What should i do?
Should i go job hunting?
Or do the online job, like doing online surveys they pay me 10 cents each.
I did that, its dammmm tiring seriously. =.=
Should i do my old pastime routines?
swimming, jogging, gym-ming..
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...

Okay i just got home.
Studied almost whole day at
abandoned food place at woodlands point this time.
The air con was bloody cold,
coz just now it rained heavily for a while.

Luckily, i bought my sweater =DD
Hmm, i feel really at ease after i summarise all.
Took me like over 20 foolscaps, both sided.
WOOT. lols.
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Kayysss, i need to go memorise and
understand all the concepts.
Im still a bit blur at Gel Electrophoresis
and bit of PCR reaction lectures. =.=

Hmmm.
Just wanna say im doing another recording.
The song Unintended by Muse.
The song is soooooo slow and emo, really.
Hahks.=DD

Anyways,
Im buying a new guitar just to play the bass part.
My 2nd orange guitar 1st and last string pecah + its karat. lols.

Sleeping very very late tonight.

Still have no cofidence.

Lots to memorise.

Kkkkkkkkkkkkkkk,
Go studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Ive gone thru lectures up to nucleic acids part 2 ONLY.
So slowwwww..
I cant concentrate.
Every 30 mins or so, I will just bring my mind elsewhere.

I was at yiochukang cc.
Mugging from 1pm plus.
I decided to went home at 6 plus.

I wish this module exam,
whatever i study wil come out,
coz Mr Goh really didnt point out the points need to learn.
Only Miss Anna give the points to learn
on the 1st part of lectures.
Darn it. =.=
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I went home,
i slept till now.
Was completely restless.
Even now after i woke up,
i dont have the strength or mood to study.

But i have to force myself.
To summarise all the lectures at least by today.
Im just halfway through.
Tomorrow ill just read thru and memorise till i drop.
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While studying today at yck cc,
I really thought of many things.
Thats why i couldnt concentrate.
Those old flashbacks..



I know im being emo shit.
But things like this just flashed to me.



I started remembering every single thing
of what happen to my late friend, Zawiyah.
Then i remembered today is the exact 2 months when she left.


Akan ku sedekah-kan kamu al-fatiha, semoga allah mencucuri
rahmat keatas roh kamu..

The day before i was glancing thru all her past blog posts..
And there is this quote written by her.

"In life, people come and go.
life is increadible
we might thought that they would stay with us forever but its just a thought..they all go away without a trace
whatever happens, life still have to go on
love your life and never lose it coz the one who will stay forever with your soul is yourself.no one else except ur self... "

I actually cried reading that.
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Sighs*
Put all these thoughts aside.
Have to concentrateeee on my final exam.



I always feel better if i blog
all my feelings or thoughts out
whenever i feel down.
The sing i just uploaded is really touching.
*Sobs*
Melody by David Tao Zhe..

Kayssssssssss.
i just woke up.
Ima gonna marathon study today and tomorrow
for my final exam this thursday.

Dont know where to study also.
National library or yck cc or woodlands point?
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Happy mugging!~~~
=DD

Just got back home.
Had part 2 lectures revision at lecture 5.
Was a 3 hrs revision from 9-12pm.

Then went to study at Study corner.
Intense revison, studying.
I jotted down and summarise part 1 lectures.
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This thursday would be having my FINAL exam,
something like o lvls.
Biochemical Practices.
This module i took is real painnn.
So many need to memorise =.=

Its similar to the module, Molecular Bio i took last year.
Cialat..
Real intense, im gonna marathon studying starting from tmr morning.
Today gonna do things i need to do before tmr starts.
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Hmmmm,I have to do well this time.
Im sure i can.
Maybe tomorrow gonna go yck cc to study
Real peace there. =DD

Just got back from eating supper
with my family at A&A.

Was really dam full
when i ate 2 servings :DD

Here are some of my baby brother's pic
Cute larhhhhhsss. :DD
1st few pics taken form my brother's new N73 nokia phone
THREE POINT 2 megapixeled. x.x
so very the very clear siaaa.

In the morning,
i did hell of research on ip addresses.
My ip was banned, for dunoe what reason.
i was playing this online game,
super addictive.

Then i was kicked out of the game,
coz i go and kill other players.
Shit.

How the hell do i change my ip address?
I called Singtel they say my ip is static address,
not the dynamic ip address.
=.=
Sad man.
Have to wait for days for me to be unbanned.
*Sobs. *Sobs.
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Later in the afternoon.
HA!

I sang and recorded the song,
sang by Jonathan Leong in this week's S'pore idol.

At first i asked my brother to play the rhythm with the 2nd guitar.
It turned out well but the last part we were giggling away.

So well,
I just recorded myself.
I prefer with the rhythm sound in the background music.
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And yah,
i upload the song to my blog also.

I had BCT lecture for 4 torturing hours,
seiously.
Its raining and its dam cold.
And im so hungry at that time.

Mr Goh goes thru class tests 1 and 2.
Didnt know my marks yet, should be by tomorrow i think.
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Anyways,after school today,
had a ride with Erina's father's car.
Since Haidir have his car license,
he's got the opportunity to drive that car,
since Erina's parents went for a holiday.

Was with Abg Wan,Erina and Haidir.
Hahaks, first time Haidir gone as far as this
journey today.

LOLS.
We went rounding first at:
Changi, just sightseeing and going thru
the back way to go thru ecp expressway.
Then we go to Labrador Park,
parked the car, walked up the hill till the top
Yeah, was quiet a nice view.
Can see Pulau Semakau and Pulau Bukom.=))

Then,
We went to Bedok to drink and rest.
But i didnt eat, eaten just now in school.
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Soon after that,
Haidir dropped me and Abg Wan
to tanah merah mrt station.
And was quite tired afetr all.
slept the whole journey back to sembawang.
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went home,slept sumore till 8 plus.
yawnnsss.

And today i was supposed to meet up with all my ex-classmates
to lepak near my house.
But i overslept and was too tired today.
Sorry ahhhh.

Just wanna show u all my leetnetwork mates.
And most of them live in different countries,
like Canada,Usa,France,Australia,Brazil,China,Thailand,Japan etc, etc.

Its fun though knowin them for at least one year plus.
all their slang, how they speak etc.
Hahks. dam funny.

We have our own forum website
so basically we post out our rants,
talk about game discussions,
talked about cracked softwares etc,
talk about shit and good life,
talk our problems,
yea, could be just anything.


And we call each other my our nicknames.
For example i call myself 'Recon'
and they call me recon too, easier. =)

(Click on the image to see the bigger version)

Tomorrow would be,
[MLP]Medical Laboratory Practices test.
Have to study right now.

And after that would be my, last few weeks
to end of all lectures/practicals!
Exam coming soon i think 11th or 14th of September.

One year and 3 months have passed.
Dated from 20th of June.
Time flies superr fast.

I cant believe i would be graduating quite soon,
next year.
Coz Industrial attachment(IA) would be fast.
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I wish i could keep on studying
and not start working soon.
Whatever it is,
i will try my best in persuing my studies
as far as possible!=))

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Kaaayssssss,
Hayqal, better go studyyyyy nowwwww.

Woke up at 9am today
Had breakfast,
after reheating yesterday's kenduri food.
Was quite full though. =)


Hmmmm,
Yesterday, went out to town with Hazeeq,
my brother lahh.
He got his $1k plus of his pay.
He worked only on weekends and earned 1k++
Good rite? Dont know how he get the opprtunity
to work as a nokia promoter in roadshows. =.=


Anyways, we shopped at bugis edge.
He bought a new pair of jeans,
wallet and a shirt.
Blanja-ed me a shirt too at rebirth,
Liked the design. =)

After loads of surverying,
going round and round to find the things he wanted,
lucky edge place have everything.


Anyways, theres a NEW place beside bugis,
similar to edge, just opened.
Havent been there before.

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After that, it was like close to 7.30pm.
OMG. my late grandma's kenduri gonna start soon.
I had $2 left, my brother had like $14.

Aiya, nvm lahh.
Gamble lahh if not enough money.
Decided to take the taxi to Tampines
for the kenduri.
And its like $3.00 extra for peak hours.
The bill after all was $15.70.
Hahks. We were lucky. =P
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Reached-
Kenduri still havent started yet.
This time there was many people,
Till me and all my relatives have to go inside
my granny's room.
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Had the whole recitation done.
Had food after that.

Talked to my mak nyer kakak punyer anak punyer husband.
Hahks.
Argghh relative? cousin? aunt?
Im confuseddd, i cant differeantiate all these words.
LOLS.
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He's a phone maniac expert. =D
He says that my PHONE
can change to 2 MEGAPIXEL camera,
plus have THE SONY WALKWAN HP,W800i SOUND QUALITY.
WOW!
All for just like $120 plus.

Hmm.. Should i go modify anot?
Should i?..
Should i?..
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But my contract gonna end soon.
ard end of this year i think.
Hehks,
Nehmind.

After loads of talking done,
most of us in the room fall asleep,
at granny's bed.
It was a king size bed anyways.
So well.. like 7 of us on the bed =)
ZzzZzzzzZzz..
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All the mum's still in the kitchen doing clean ups.
We went home at 2am plus.
I slept like for 3 hrs plus.
Plus i slept in the car during the journey home.

Then home sweet home. =DD

I'm missing my Grandma so much now.

Now then i realised how much ive missed her a lot.
Though i felt so different when she's gone,
on that very day itself.

She would always buy for me the,
Gui Hua Heaven n earth bottle.

She never fails to cook something special for
me and my 2 other brothers every now n then last time.
like lempeng, pisang goreng,
pulut hitam, green bean soup.

Really gonna miss all these food..

Missing you, Grandma..