its 4 Am plUS nO..

stiLL cudnT get to foRCe myselF to sLeeP

arrgHH..was on the cOm afTEr camE home frOm the hOspitAL

sTill...no imPRovemENt aT aLL

i dun nOE if yA' aLL beliEve in thIS

sumoNE IS tryiNg to kILL my dAd usiNG bLAck magIC

my mUm weNT to seE the mAlay traditiONaL perSon

he sAid thAT sumoNE iS killIng my dAd sloWly

WTF?..lucky mY mum wenT to seE him yESterdAy

nOW that persoN is figHTing bacK the black mAgic..

haiZz..iVE gota to belieVE thiS..iTS reallY obvioUS..

can sEE my dad reallY rottiNG..

but foR whatevEr it is..i wiLL pray everythiNg will be fiNE soon

juZ wana BE back as noRmaL like lASt tiME

im reallY lookIng frowarD to thiS daY..

and nOE sumthINg..tHAT evil persoN does the samE to my mUm too

dats why my mum stiLL havent recoVEr tiLL noW..

the doCs wILL nvR recoVEr my parEnts tOO..

the onlY wAy is to fight bAck thaT blaCk magIc..

really soundS scaRy siaLZ..*wonderinG*

haizZ..but ivE got To belieVE thIS reaLLy..

toDAy..wooTX..collect mY hP

4 dAys senD for repaiR..kAox

my scrEEn just becaME blank afTEr i dropped It

luckilY can be repAire *pHew..

hmm...juz wonderiNG..

this yeAr..days jus pasSed by so QuicklY

iTS july nOW..and gona be auguST soOn..whacKX

so faSt liao...argHH

hMm..

jUZ kindA misS u~~

jUZ dunO whY Le..

arrghH..nvm..

i ve gotA make myselF sleEp noW

no one's onlINE noW..bORed..

niTEx nitEx..latTErss

haIX.juz feeL like bloggiNG
todaY really bad dAy
my hAndpHoNE drOppEd..
nOW my phONE canT on..tHE scrEEn veRy blUr
im jUZ scarEd if i seND for warrAnty i mUZ pay..dIE~.no moNEy
hoPE fRee for the warrAnty carD..haIX
for those ppL who wanA sms oR caL me
sorriEx kX..
anyThiNG jUZ talk in mSn mayBE im oNliNE
everYday weNt to hospiTal afTEr skOOL
sEe my fAthEr lyiNG on the bEd so restLeSs
tHE doCs stILL cuDnt fiGure oUt my dAd's sickNEss
my daD havEnt slePt for 6 days reAdixx till nOw
haiX..piTy hIm..boTh my pareNts arE siCk
no oNE undErstanDS mE foR noW~~
my mUm's cant go for tRAetmenbT agAIn
coZ my dad'S sick and cant sEnd my mUm to KL
haIXx..the ceLLS are sprEAdiNG to my mUm's chEeks theRe
face quiTE rEd..im jUZ feeLing hoPElEss to sEe all theSe happeniNg
haIZz..bEen thinkIng realLI a lOTX
evErythiME goiNG to skOOL
wiLL thinK duriNg the jOurneY in the TRAin
wheNEveR me and my oTher 2 bRo werE at the HospitAl,
wILL tRy nOT to cRy..bUt wILL crY afTEr gET ouT of hOspiTAL
hAIxx..thIS yeAR rEAlly bAd lUCk upOn mY famiLY
hopIng bOTh my parEntS wiLl recoVEr
anD hoPE lucK wiLL bE upoN thEm
oR miraCleS happEns...

haPpy buRthdAy mUm..
evEN thoUGh ure siCk..
may u gEt weLL sOOn..
tHAnks for evErythiNG'

haiXx..yesterdAy went Home at abt 2am
my dad's beeN adMittEd to the HospiTal at ttSh
tan tock seng hosp..thinGS are jUSt mesEd up thEre
my my daD was brouGht to the emErgEncy warD
and guess waD? fuCk it..all rOOMS ARE FILLED UP..
wtF? what do the nurses eXpect my dad to dO?
the nursEs there arE juST likE poles,diD not take any blood test or what
to my dad,heck tempErature all theSe..WTF?
till my mum ask them do then THey do..
my daD was liKE shiveriNG all the wAy
and all the partS of my dad's bODy are in dam Dam great pAin..
i can See iT..how the paiN my dad hAve to bEAr
haiXx..why muz this sickness camE to my dad in juST a shoCk
my dad's waS healthY..and i duDnt imagIne this had happEneD
my mum's got nose cAncer,my dad'S condition gettIng worSe
stlll uNDer observatiOn in the emErgency wArd..
till nOW...i cud nt conCentraTE on my stuDieS
its lIKE ive beeN so quieT in clAss..dats why i talK less sinCe i came in this skOOL
days pASsed by..seeINg both my parenS suffEr in greaT pAIn
for those pPL ouT therE..
treAsure ur parents and waD u haVE noW..
for mE..thinGS havE just chanGEd..
changed and changEd..
haiXxx..

life's meaninGless to mE noW..

botH my paRenTS are roTtiNG as daYS passEd bY..

my dAd's goTA havE stroKE or paRkiNsoN iF mattErs beCamE worSer..

thiS's the firSt tiME oF my entIRe liFe thAt i havE to see all theSe..

my dad's cant waLk or siT too muCh

no appEtiTE,no strEngTH..so weAk

haiZz..foR thoSe pp L oUT theRe

i waNA say thIS to yoU..

tReaSure whAt u havE for nOW

treasURe ur parEntS..

liVE whAt u havE noW..

aND fOR pPL likE mE..

itS baD luCk upOn my famIly

canT slEep weLL evErydAy

beeN thinkINg so haRD on wAd to Do nOW

iTS likE iTS suddenlY hapPenEd to mY dAd

and im jUZ as shOCked as iT wAs..haIXx

for mY mUm..had beeN cryIng eveRydAy

my fAmilY jUZ cudnT do anythINg abT it

i reaLLy treasURe the tiMEs i had wiTh my famIly in those paSttimes

bUT noW..it HAs changEd my liFe..

cuDnt havE anymORe famiLy reunitEd agAin..

actuAlly i dun waNA wriTE abt thIS in my blOG..

haiXx..but jUZ really wanT to wriTE it

i juZ dun wanA diSturb my freNDs whu r takiNG the O's or N's diS yR

haIXx..wheNevEr i seE my dAd nad muM like dAt

i havE to contrOL..bUT reallY reaLLy cannOT

wiLL jUST burSt aLL oUt...

im reAlly reaLLy dun nOE what to dO noW..

feeL likE quittinG skoOL and staY at hoME

jUZ dun haVE the moOD to do anythIng...

haizZZ

i jUZ canT bEAr to sEe my dAd suffEring agAin

As dAys passEs bY,he"s becoMinG morE siCk

todAy my dAd is like gaspIng for aiR

harD to breAthE..hands shivEring,,all theSe

arGhh..the doC my dad wenT to saiD my dad

wiLl got strokE or parKinsoN iF matters reallY get worSe

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?..

1st was mUm.now my daD..

im roTtinG to sEe all these happeniNGs

cuDnt concenTratE on my studiEs for noW

keeP thinkiNG oF aLL theSe..haIZz..

wannA approAch feW of my freNDs

but suM o lVls and n lvlS diS yeaR

duN waNA distURb them nemORe

haIxx..my mUm criEd noN stoP daT dAy

my mUm still goes to woRk evEn thouGh she's siCk

todAY my dAd rushEd back hoME from woRk

theN straighT awAy lIE down on bEd

my dAd cant takE it anYmoRe..

jUZ whY muz dis aLL happenEd to me??

im prayIng dam dam dAm very haRD for my parenTS to rEcovEr fAst

especiallY my daD..suddEn sicknEss..

reaLLy piTY him..cant eAt cholestrol fooD

no appetiTe,becomiNG more thinnEr

cannOT stand or sIT loNG..haiXx

im lOSt foR noW..juz cudnt imagiNE dat all theSe happenEd

and it reaLLy makE me reallY so depreSsed...

haiZZ..im sO soRry fOR nOT bloGgiNG fOR sO loNG
wAs dAm buSY theSe dayS..
im takiNG theSe chanCe to updaTE my bLog
jUZ thoSe fuCked thingS happenEd
my mUm's jUZ woNT go fOr the CheckUp
and the doCs said to pOStpoNEd to 28 jULY

bUt dUn nOE whetHE my mUm wiLL gO

yEsterDAy..haIZz..was worSt

there wEre a lOT oF blooD comiNG ouT nOn stoP

my nEice wanNA caLL the ambUlancE bUT my mUm wonT let

iNt he enD bougHT soME ice pUT on my mum"S noSe

haIZz..my dad'S alsO siCk

tHE doC saiD my dAd's goT sliGht pRone to stRokE

haiZ..juz canT beAR to seE him shivEriNG all daY

and no appEtitE alSo..haiXx

bOth oF my parenTS are siCK

my dad"S nervE on hIS the area besiDe the stomaCh buRSt

hE's got diffiCultY to walk anD cant stand fOR loNG

had to liE on bed..

my dad'S have not workEd for 2 weekS

he'S juZ very weaK

everYdaY had to haVE a lOOkout oN mY dad

massAge my dad' leGS..aLL thosE

haiZz..whY muZ dis havE to struCk me??..

i juSt cuDnt have FAmilY harmonY anymORe

i cuDnt tasTe mY mum's coookInG anymORe

iTs alwayS my maiD cook

and i WiLL nOT eaT..nEveR

my dAd iS becomiNG mORe thinNEr

no appEtiTe alSo..haIZz

jUZ cuDnt beaR to seE mY boTH of pArenTS siCk

whEn wILL be tHaT day whEn mY famiLY will be reUnitEd

i had beeN prayIng HArd and hopiNG they wiLL recoVEr faSt

sumTimes wILL cRy anD preteND nOT to cry infroNT of mymUm anD dAd

haIZz..thE suFferinGS iVE gonE thRu

wiLL jUZ continUE..havE to bear wiTh iT

haiZz..

pLZ spAre my mUm and dAd..

dUn tAKe tHEm awaY..PLizz..

im beggINg thIS time rouND..

haiZz..im jUZ rottiNG~~

my lIfe kiNDa useLSs nOW~

thiS juSt goNa be woRsEr in thE daYS to coME..

haiZZ..

wOOtX

jUZ camE bAck hOmE

fROm a TiriNG Long dAy

it wAs jUZ a SurpRise fOR mE

sHE saID waNA meeT me to paSs me sumThinG

haD to ruSh tO noVenA afTEr sKoOL

aLSo dUn nOE wad Le..

ahaCkX..aND iVE got mY posT birthDay preSenT

i liKEd iT..=)

whICH was lAst twO monTHs agO..LoLX

hOW sWeet oF hEr..thaNkiEwX vEri mUCh

*mUAcKX*

wooTX

a nEw pErson jUZ joINed oUR clAss

sHE was on The waiTing liSt

shE was jUZ differeNT from aLL

lIKE wenXin they aLL..

ahAckx..

she jUZ remiNDs mE oF cLAriSSa

HEr facE dam sAme liKE herS

whaCKx..couDnt imAGine IT

me And fayYAz sat besiDe hEr

coZ she's loNELy

tHEn stArt lArhX..talKEd and talKEd

fOR the whoLe lectuRe..LoLX

dat was in The morniNG

afTEr skOOL..

weNT to CuT haiR..

wAna gO rebOnd My frinGE

makE it moRe liKE easIEr to styLE

onlY the frinGE onlI

bUT din GO do daT

mayBE nXt weeK or wHat

mUZ go ask my dAd foR monEy

haIX..14 mORe daYS

2 mORe weeKs

dun woRriEx..

sHE wiLL bE fiNE..sHE wiLL

evERythING's gONA be alRiGHt

suFFeriNGs wiLL briNG sweEt resuLts..

thIS soNG 'tHE truTh bY gooD charLottE..'

jUZ loVe thIS soNG dam dAm muCh..

arrGhh..soRry keL..

i canT go fOR the goOD charlooTE conCert oN 12th juLy

daM saD..i gOT lectURe anD practICal teSt

wasTEd siaLX..

iTs liKE onCe a lIFetiME i wuD gEt to mEEt thiS banD

anD see thEir liVE real facEs..arrGGhh..i cant go..

jUZ wisHEd to jaM thiS soNG..

bUT dun havE guitAr tabS..

heYYs..kElsoNN and farIS..

if uRe alL wanA go jammINg

aSk me alSo..i waNA siNG

i bE the voCaliSt..

hMM..oNE timE recoRdEd at kElsonn's hSe

still rmb laSt yEar..i siNG and kEl playEd the guitAr..

the soNG 'thank You mum' bY gC

iTS reallY got the mOmenTS in mE

felT likE singiNg thIS soNG agaIn

i jUZ loVE this sONg anD thank you muM bY gc alSo

madE mr rmb the moMEnts of last timE

nOW my mp3 is loSt

wastEd..tHEr goT my recoRdingS i sanG wiTh keL

so nICe..perfEct..at 1st sanG den lauGh

keep oN practiCe..till pErfeCt

wooTX..so paiSeh Le..

i leT sumoNE hear my recoRdinGS

den sHE paSsed arouND

tiLL my whoLE clAss gonA wanA listEn my recordiNGs

but truLy sialAr..when's the nXt time we geT to jAmmed agaIn?

sinCe all arE buSy...

pLAnniNG to maKE my oWn bANd

farIS thE rhyThm

mAnan baSsiSt

hAdi drumMEr

mayb faris alSo lead

den mE vocaliSt,sinGEr

wahhX..dun noE when can mAKe perfeCt..haIXx

onCe agAin,

im jUZ rottiNG agaIn

rot roT roT..im roTtinG

afTEr seeINg the doCumenTS oF my mum's cAse

was jUZ likE pulliNg mY heaRt doWn..

seeiNG the x raYs filMs scanS of my mum's noSe

arrgHH..i jUZ canT beaR iT..

i nOE that thiS wuD break mE..

but jUZ havE to wait till 20 juLY

sTop thinKing abT aLL theSe

waDEva lArhx..

itS aLL jUSt faTE's jOb..

i mUst nOt bE thiNkiNG and thInkING liKE oNE kiND of retArd

liKE waD u sAid 'suFferiNGs wiLL brIng swEet reSultS'

20th oF juLy......will i nOE the ouTcomE..haiXx

hmM..todAy dIn weNT home sTr8 After skOOL

weNT to mEet Up wiTh keLsoNn and kAiheNG

hOMe is bOriNG..wILl makE mE thiNK oF all Those

wEnt tO bUgiS maRkEt

wAlk waLk onLI

dEn weNT to buGis 'eDgE' upsaTirs

iT seEms dAT im goNA bUy loTS anD loTS of thiNGS

aLL thoSe itemS iw As attraCtEd..wooTX

waNA bUy the panTS froM rebiRth shOp

dam nICe anD tHE bELT wiTH a chiAN danglINg at 77th strEet

wahhXx..bUt no moNEY siaLX..

aLL goNE..leFt 5 dollarS plUS in baNk

dat tiME spenT quiTE a lOT..thINkabT 60 plUS

jUZ by bUyign a bAg aND the addiDas shOE

wahhXx..stRess liAo

whEN will i geT the hOLS..to starT part tiME joB..haIXx

augUSt?? octobEr?? so loNG...arrGGHHhXx

dAmn..iTS vEri loNG..

stOp thinKing lArhX hAyQaL

iTS jUSt no uSe~~

i hAVe to tHInk wHAT iS bEst

anD whAT iS gooD FOr thE nExT..

itS beEn vEry loNg..

sEeiNG bAck the mOmenTS

was jUST likE mAkiNG me realISe oF sumthiNg

yOu reAlly reaLLy maDe mE feeL dat iTS nOT the enD yeT

aND you enCourAged me a loTX

i appReciatE daT reALLy..

tHanKX..