No one's at home in the afternoon except me
for like 1 week plus.
Grandma's terribly sick.
Kinda missed her,
everytime she would just keep nagging
and nagging and talking the whole day.

She would always cook better dishes
than what my maid cooks.
She would always buy for me
snacks/food/water when she goes downstairs.

Sighs.
It's so quiet at home now.
Grandma cant hardly walks now.
and feeling so weak.
Mum says this could be the last days/weeks
seeing her.


i just wished i could live a life of my own,
and runaway from all these problems...

fever,
sore-throat,
flu,
muscle-aches.

i got the muscle aches from the gym workouts
and swimming last few days.
and got the rest next day.

didnt even slept whole night of yesterday,
so i msn-ed,
create a new profile in 'bolt'
learned 2 new songs,
i live my life for you,

and;

everything burns.
hehks.

ive got a new tip.
earning money is easy.

just take part in online surveys to get cash
debited to your account

or

online investment.

tats all what this australian guy
told me and he he became rich etc, lol.

i tried online surveys,
but its such a big hassle.
the surveys are veryyy longgg
and one survey can earn me up to $1 US money.

siannnnnnn...

Left with nothing.....

My grandma got into hospital again,
after they said that she got dengue fever.
WTF?
Its really weird,
coz changi general hospital got lots of mosquitos
at the waiting area.

KAOX.
sumore its like 2 am on my birthday sumore.
Had to rush her to hospital etc.. blah3

kayssssss.

First wish
Hoping my mum to recover back from her nose 'cancer'
It grew back like last time again.
x.x

Second wish
I hope my dad wont get stroke and get sick again.
Half of his body became numb sumtimes,
and cannot be felt..
sighhsssss.

Third Wish
For 'that' to happen,
but its not gonna be possible.

School is back for now.
I took medical technology as my core module,
which would end at october.

Then would be attachment coming up.
Then would be end of school,
Then hope i get to poly,
Then go for NS,
Then hope i get to a gd company for my real job
and earn loads of money!!!!,
Lols.
Hehks. =))

Hmmmm,
I gotta change my blogskin soon
and do my class blog which will be finishing soon.
I've just installed photoshop after reformatting my com.
back to workkkk,erps. :)

I'm happy for my dad.
My dad found a job as an engineer back,
after few months of hunting jobs.
Phew~~
Seriously a big relief.

10th of May,
My baby brother's birthday.

14th of May,
Would be mother's day + my birthday!
Sweet. =)
I just dont wanna it to happen like
wad happen on last year's birthday.
But this time, it wont right? :)

It's such a nice rainbow yesterday.
I assume ur life now is getting better, rite?
^__^

I used to this
I used to that
I used to do the things,
which i would always do.

I used to look what's been happening,
I used to make sure it just goes fine,

I used to read back all those memoirs
I usedddddd toooooooooooo.

It didn't happen again,
not anymore.

I would clich and grasp on to the last hope.
Hoping that it would go on just what i used to.....

I still haven't paid my bills yet which,
is like $90 over.
Same for my brother worser $200 over.

I must work,
part-time from now on.
I was stupid to realise from now on.
Even though all the hard-work interviews,
i went;
failed.

Hmmmm,
Last 2 days was the corleone's bbq pit.
:))
Though it rain-ed for a while,
the bbq still goes on in the shelter. =P
This time there were less pictures taken.
So, i don't bother posting them up here.

Totally, it was good.
Maybe the last gathering.
But going to langkawi nxt year.
Thats what we are all planning.
hehks.

I'll be leaving for KL tonight.
For only one day,
so i'll be home at around 3 or 4 am plus.

Mum's going for treatment in KL,
hoping for the best.......

woooottsss.
what a break,
one month.

all i did was slacking.
in fact that why i didnt work?
it makes me go nuts going around
singapore for interviews again and again
=P

coming up, bbq pit.
corleone's party,
this saturday.
=DDD.


this 21 april
would be the exam results.
gonna be impatient to view it.

just came back from chalet.
aloha resort cum downtown east.
dead tiredddd.
3 days 2 nights was really good.

swimm-ing,
barbecu-ing,
cook-ing.
guitar-ing,
sing-ing.
chatt-ing,
movie-ing,
arcade-ing
late nights sleep-ing,
=DD

the most touching is
the video crews did a graduation video
about our class.
veryyy touch-ing.
few burst into tears.
hehs.

invited the course manager
and other lecturers for the bbq
and the view-ing of the video.
=))

class B,
its the end of us.
we are gonna split up in the next semester.
class b left with good memories,
how we worked together,
how we got thru together with the stumbles upon.

next semester wud be classes P,Q,R,S.
super weird.
x.x

kayyssss.
hope i got into biomed tech module.
and soon attachment in oct.
looking forward.

hmmmm..
i feel like i miss studying.
yar rite.
hehs.
=D

laterssssssssssss.

Time just passes so quickly,
10.12.2005.
Its been one year passed.
10.12.2005,
that day when things stumble down on my mind.
things changed and are not meant to be.

But till today,
I feel blessed for God and the ppl
who cared and consoled for me.
And giving me advices etc.

When thinking back about the past,
its just so un-imaginable.
How i took care of myself,
How i faced the stumbles thru' the journey,
And how i managed to keep the trust in myself.

To youu,
Really thanks lotttsssssss.
Though what ure feeling now is bad,
things will change soon,
and make u smile like before. ^^

I'll be looking forward for the rainbow to appear.
and more rainbows to come as days pass by.
and u'll have a better life ahead.
=))

day's out at sentosa today.
11am.

the sun was scorching hot
and it's gonna be perfect for tanning.
yaya it went all perfectly fine.
with beach volleyball using soccer ball lol.
and soccer with all the hot burned sweat.

it was ohkae til about 4pm.
and it rained.
lucky we were on the way to the changing room.
hahs.

iy was quite funny though.
we do like cheerleader style in the water.
2 base,2 person on top and me on the most topppp.
yea right it went stable for like 5 secs?
when we took a picture of it.
and poof splashed into the water.
hardly drowned. lol.

was like 7 people went there including me.
=)

looking forward for the class chalet this mon,tue and wed.

noe smth?
i wana do housing on my handphone,
black color casing! lols
its gonnabe NICE.
=DDDD
hehs.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

exams are over!
one month of break and relaxation.
looking forward for the chalet soon.
looking forward for the bbq pit soon.
=))

hehs.
last week went to wild wild wet,
at downtown east.
was dammm helluva great.
though it was raining a while on that day.

the rides there are better than escape theme park.
coz u see,
before taking a ride, u have to
queue up which can take up to 30 mins.
lols.

kayyyyys.
i just downloaded this
ultra,extreme biug file
called the service pack 2 for windows xp.
326 MB plus all the critical updates.
omg.

and at last i got my movie maker 2.1.
phewwwwww.
before that i had the old version,1.1.
which had no transition effects,blah3.

we will be doing the class photo movie,
just for memories this tuesday.
=))

hehs.
guess what?
i distorted my old guitar
and take out the strings and the tuner gears
onto my black guitar.

phew..
with all the pliers,screws etc.
i got back the own form back.
hahs.
looked better.
=DD

ohkaes.
laterssssssssssss.

2 more days to
laboratory exam.
4 more days to
general microbio exam.

fuuhhhhhh.
i don't know whether i can make it.
if i were to fail,
i have to repeat for one FULL year
omg.

crackkkk my brainn yesterday
at yck cc.
studied there.
only 2 hrs only.
couldn't absorbed any longer.

and also btw,
yesterday i saved a girl's life.
from being hit by a speeding car.
felt so paiseh yesterday.
it was like a tv drama;
seriously.
lol.

kkkkkkkkk,
gtg breakfast now.
laterssssssssss.

This morning.
I saw a micro-organism
in the bathroom.

While i was bathing,
there's this amoeba thing,

vibrat-ing,
shak-ing,
at a very fast speed.

omg.
I used the spray shooter
to shoot it down the drain.

If only i could take a picture of it.
wasteddddd.
its definitely real.

what could it be.
white-greyish colour.
size of a whole thumb.

And also,
the other day,
a small cockroach dropped
on top of my head.
You can imagine wads the next
feeling/moment i'm going to react.

Behave like a crazy mad cow.
and feeling sooo uneasy
for that minutes or so.

That cockroach dropped on my head,
wiggle thru my neck.
and MANAGED to get in my body.
wtf.

i become siao for a moment.
LOL.

kayyyysss.
6 more days to exam.
laboratory maths.
and 8 more days to
general microbiology.

crackkkkkkkkk my brainnnn.
=X

lols.
just embed this song to my blog,
cracked,rusty cold hearts.

composed by me.
vocals + guitar was me.
and the rhythm was my third brother.

nothing better to do,
since i went home early today.
hahs.

=))

kayyss.
gotta go study for my
analytical chem paper tomorrow.

laterssss.

it feels so lazy to blog,
day by day.

updates.
today,
went jammin' at usual place.
miracle-ly,
we get to play the full song of
jujur by radja.
and also
promise by matchbook romance.

lols.
on-that-spot we learned the tabs.
was like 3 hrs plus.
hehs.

two days back.
went to escape theme park
in our school uniform
lols!
was ohkae but,
most of the rides are under maintenance.
overall, was pretty tired
just by the queueing up for the rides.
hahs.

school.
general micro phase test DONE.
lab safety teary test DONE.
laboratory maths teary test DONE.
now left with,
molecular bio practical assignment tmr,
and analytical chem on friday.

woots.
4 tests this week.
27th march would be the real exam.
and also other subsequent exams.
phew~~ -_-"""

oh ya.
i'm always late for school EVERYDAY.
i woke up at 6.20 or 6.30.
which is very late.

i couldnt wake up like last time anymore.
even though there are 2 alarm clocks.
-__-"

had a veryy long sleep today.

yesterday,
went shopping with kel.

so, the last time i shopped
was like few months back.
hehs.

i even don't know how much i spent in all
and also,
that whole day.
i was spending a lot on water.
lols.

went bugis,
bought 3 shirts.
the adidas shop no more designs
all the plain ones.
they said that nxt month they will
import new ones. =)

took the train back to lavender.
went to beach road.
ate there.

finding the slipper i wanted
but no more stock already.
kel bought the other type of slipper.

soon after that,
went to peninsula plaza.
oh ya.
met jianyong also,
with his band friends.

now there are more than 3 jamming centres
in peninsula plaza.
the new ones at basement.

went home after that.
changed.

went out again.
for pre-wedding dinner,
for those who can't make it on the actual day,
which is today.

the food is dammmm nice.
langkawi style.
lols.

back home ard 12 am plus.
did some maintenace on my computer.
defrag/scandisk/registry check/blah3..

2am,
slept.

school's short today.
changed after reached home.

cut my hair.
and went swimming.

swimming gives u broad shoulders.
lols. =)

home after that.

whole day with the guitar,
playing new songs.

now, i don;t know what computers
meant to me anymore.

its just getting me bored.
i want my 'LAJI' program!!
arrhhggh.
=X

I can't help myself
to be felt like this again.

I'm starting to lose confidence
if i were to start all over again.

to devote,
to commit,
all back from the beginning.

I'm tired,
I'm worn out.

I don't know how much time
i have to wait again,
for me to realise again.

for that miracle
i do hope so...