I saw mum struggling again
in trying to shrunk back the tumor.

but failed this time.
the person who treats mum
have left,
and gone missing in batam.

it was ohkae the other day,
all the cancer cells have fade off
but, this time
that fucking man keeps on trying
on my mum using his stupid,
some kind of thailand black magic,
making the family suffer too much.

i've thought its all over already,
dad had recovered last month.
after the treatment.

now's my mum's turn again.
few more weeks,
its gonna start to spread
to my mum's brain.
making more fatal.


i don't know why
he must be jealous of us.
jealous of my mum's boutique,
making us lose business.

i sucked,
im stupid.
i did nothing to help.

"...doctor said radiation would be the most
method but survival rate would be 15% only
with the age...."

what about the disastrous side effects?..

sighhsss.