yEapX..Im sOo hAppY tOdaY

waHHXx..wEnt sHoPPiGN anD shOppIng yEsterDay

i bougHt tHE miz29 BAg..aT lasT phEw~~waHHXx..

aND ..hMm..tHE fasHIon stEreO headSet fOR mY phoNE..

sO nicE..fuLL whiTE..wahHXXxx

todAy weNT swimmING aT 8 aM

wahHXx..sO earLy in The moRniNG

craZyy..bUT acTuaLLy nOT

waS sO enErgeTiC Le..

mAnan anD faRis sAid swIm 10 Laps

i saID i caNNot..sEow~~

i oNly sWim 7 lAps..bUai tahaNX laRHXx

hMm..We sAw thIS twO giRls..

oNE oF thEm lOOkeD liKE malAy

acTuallY nOT..chiNEse

fuckINg tAnnEd skIN..sOo nICe..waHHXx

YEapX..dEn weNT to fAris hSe..

tOok tHE guiTAr..pLAyed a FEw sonGS

dEn tHEy caME to mY hsE

fAris broUGht thE wirEless LAn cabLE

we plaYEd warCraft fRozEn thrONe

yeaPX..sO fUn..tHEY briNG theiR lapTops

wooTX..played fOR so LOnG.wahHXx

haiX..yEsterdAy mY biLL caME

anD WTF?? coSt 64.33 doLLars

i wAs stunNed..wtH siAlx.

thEy sAid i uSe a LOt oF gpRs

waHH sIAoxx..evEn the sMS i dIn excEEd

foR gpRs i exCeeD..wTF??

anD my dAd wahHXx.. nAgginG anD naggiNG..

aiYa..nxt mOndaY sTart skOOl Liao

wooTX..aS i sAid nEw liFe,nEw ppL..wHAcKKxx

wahhXX..i sPEnt 70 pLus yESterDAy sHoppINg

mY banK moNEywaHHx..dUn nOE wad to sAy

lEft 90 plUS..dEn pay mY biLL lEft 30 pLUS

so sAd lE..hoPE to fINd a paRt tiME joB AsAp Le..

hMM..staYiNG t hOme oFtEn rEaLLy sUX..

dAm fuCKiNG boRiNG..

pHEw~my frEnds aLL hoLS coME readIXx

sO nO worriEs..YEapx..

hMMmm..tODay's iS dad"s biRtHdAy

wOOtx..JUz waNA wiSh tHE besT of healTh.

lAterSSsss

nYeh..nYEh ..aaRGghXX

i mUSt gO bUY thE neW a7X aLbUM

arrGHHxx..cAnt taKE iT Le..

tHE sOngZ sO nICe ..

espEciallY bAt counTRy..waHHXxx

thE liVE vErsioN..whAccKKXx

shIt..sHIt..fUCk..

mUZ gO bUY...arrGGhhxx

tHE inTRo guiTar sOlo wAhhX so nICe

tHE ppL mosHiNG in fRont oF the pErfoRmancE..

waHHXx..sTReSs liAo..

a7X u roCkeD my sOCkS ma!!

im prOud OF u..

i LurvVE UR soNGs dAm dAm mUCh

hMm..tOdaY dID nutHinG aT hOme

dIn wEnT oUt eItHeR

daM LazY Le..

wAs dAm sLeEpy toDAy

sLepT aT 5 aM pLuS lIKedDat YEstErdaY..

wAd bUsy meSsagIng aND chattIng tiLL 5 aM PluS..wTF..kaoX

woKE uP aT 7am..sLEpt 2 hRs oNLy..WtF..

whAacKXx..mY eyEs aRE daM tirEd..arrGGhxX..

hMmm..tmR wiLL bE goING tO kL

as usUAL..mY mUm's caNCeR trEAtmEnt

iM praYIng hArd mAn dAT tHE ceLLs wiLL be deAd

bE4 goINg foR thE nxT checK uP at sG hospiTAL oN the 28 juLy

oR nOT..radioTHerapHy aND chemoTherapY..

arRggHHXx..tHIs wiLL nOT happEn...

hAixX..wAd u sAid LAst tiME..

"suFFeriNGs wiLL bRiNG swEet resUltS"

lIKE thoSe iN exAms,u stUdy dAm harD..

enD uP ure hAppy wiTh ur resuLts..

YEahXx..tHEre wiLL bE swEet oNEs afTEr aLl theSe..

onCe agAin..nO mORe sighINg agaIN..=

i jUZ neeD sUmoNE tO shaRE my feELings wiTh

anD vicE vErsA..yeapX..dAts aLL

iM ouT..

yeapX..eVErythINg cAme to aN eND..

hMM..waHHx..

10 moRe daYS to sKooL

NEw liFe..nEw friEndS..nEw begiNNinG

juZ havE thE nErvoUS feELinG

aND a bIt oF jOy feELiNG..YeaHX.waHaHAxx

hMM..tOdaY dIn gO oUT cOZ sOo tIreD

My fEet stILl harDcoRe daM bListErs

jUZ bEcaUSe We weNT shoppIng dAt tiME

wiTh keLsoNn,kAi henG aND tKT

wahHX..dEN i boUGht tHE shirT

asKEd mY freND tO heLp me pUT insIDe hIS baG

wahHX..nOW mUZ gO meeT hiM agaIn

gO taKE my thINgs i spEnt daT day..

haiYA.laZy lE..

hMm..grandMA iS bacK!!

anD guEss wad'S hapPEniNG?

sHE's daM reaLLy KAOX!!

kEEp talKinG anD talkING anD talkING nOn-stOp

arrGHXXx..vEri irritatiNG Le..

sumtiMEs sLaM tHE doOR

dEn talK shIt abT mE and mY brotHErs

saY daT tiME i saY i gO swimmING

sHE sAy i gO sumWherE. elSe.waHHX..KAOX MAN!!

arrGHXXx..vErY stREss LiaO..

woOTxX..im dOign fOR kELsoNN's bLoG fOR noW

HE saY waN gothIC anD daRk desIGn..

yeaHX..creatiNG the waLLpapEr

tHE mUSic,tagbOard all thEse..

hMM..edIted mY bLog bY a bIT on tHE righT sidE

cAn saY okaY larHX..

bUT wiLL crEate tHE neW waLLpapEr agaIn

yeahX..daTS aLL fOR todAy..

im oUT....

iVe LeFt tHE paSt bEhiND..

nEvEr wILL i rEpeAt agAiN

iM soRry fOR whaT iVe dOne wrOng

anD whEn im waiTiNG..

aND whEn iM thinkING..

evEryThIng iS goNE jUZ likEddAt

wHEn tHE daYS paSt..

i fELt iM fuRthEr aPaRT fROm u..

jUZ becAusE u weRe nOT liKE laSt tiME

jUZ becAusE nOw thE feELiNG iS deAd..

evEry secoNd..u wILL

nvr cOMe baCk..

leFt mYseLf wOndEriNG..

aND maYbE oNE daY..wE wiLL meEt agAin..

evErytIme,evEry secOND caME heRe

aND whEn iM thInkiNG,

i wILL waKE uP frOm UR dreaMS

i tiNk thIs expLAins evErythINg..

pLz.. i dUn waN siLEncE fRom u~~~

taKKairEX aND haVE a gOOd liFe~

waHaHaX!!

mY fEet gOT bListErs rEAdiXx

tHE slIppEr i bOughT aT beacH roaD reaLLy sUX maN!

tHE surfacE daM harD..mY feeT liKE itS flaT

arrGGhXXx..

newAy weNT ouT agaIn todaY

mEt kElsonN anD kaIhenG aT yCk mRt

dEn weNT tO quEensWay plAzA

kElsOnN anD kaiHEng waNA bUy thE adiDas jacKEt

bUT iT aLL suX bIG tIME!!LoLX

bUT i boUGht tHE mY chemICaL roManCe shirT

ahAckX..iT wAs dAM niCE.. i liKEd IT..kEkeS..

hMm..dEn waLk aroUNd..sEe thoSe nikE shOEs

thOSe lOW cuT waN..weNT to thIS limITEd edItion shOP

aLL so rARe waNX..bUt thE priCe waHHHXx..sO eX..aiYA..

hMM..hEadEd tO ciTy haLL afTEr dAt

weNT tO citY linK..

agaiN..gO tO addIdaS shOp agaIN..bUT smaLL

nOt quiTe a loT oF varIetY..

hMm..wenT tO sunTEc ciTy toWer 1

tHEre bEttEr LE..

tHE adidAs shOp sHHOo bIg lE

yEahX..gOT loTS oF desIGns

all nICe..esPEciaLLy tHE bLacK colOR oNE

wahHXx..waNA bUY..bUT tiNk agaIN..

arrGHXx..nXt tiME..

coZ i goNA bankruPt sOOn..mUZ gO fiND part tIMe jOb sooN! wahHXx

hMM..kEng tINg caLLEd..sAid waNA go wiTh uS

waiTEd foR hIm aT citylinK the escaLatOR

yuPXx..dEn weNT outSide suntEc..

tOOk pIX fOR aLL oF uS..

dIn uSe mY phoNE..coZ vgA caMEra..LoLX..sUX maN

uSe kEng tiNg pHoEN insTEad..1.3 mEgapixEl lE..lOLX

hMm..we pOSed lOTs oF wAys..yEahX..nICe ..ahaCKx

hMM..dEN i saID i wanA go hoME liaO

so pain mY feeT lE..

sO tHEy weNT to novEna sqUare tO takE pIX agaIn

thEY goNA gO anOTher shOp duN nOE seE wAd larHX

bUT i noT goiNG lE..so tiRed..i canT staND iT readIXx

ahaCkx..weNT hoME afEr dAt..tHEyweNT novEna statIon

i gO sembAwAng..so hErE aM i bloggINg agaIn..

wooTX..chanNEl 8 goNA stRAt readIXx..

laTERrsssssSS

tHE secOnd i sAiD

iTs tHE enD agaIn

iVE left tHE paSt bEhiND

iM suRe tHIs iS thE tiME

jUZ beCauSe yoU weRE nOt liKE lasT tiME

iTs nOW thE feeLinG hAve fadEd awAy

aND maYbE nexT tIme

we wILL meEt agAin

oNE tIme,dOnt eVEr aSk agAin

tHE feELiNG tHAt hAs faDeD wiLL BE deAD

itS lIKE todAy aND tHE paSt daYS

evEry secONd,iT aLL hapPEns hEre

aND whEn mY heaRt weRe dazINg

i wiLL waKE uP frOm uR drEamS

i'LL oPEn yoUR heaRt liKE lasT tiME

evEry stOry wiLL BE evEry secONd wiTh mE

jUZ beCauSe yoU weRE nOt liKE lasT tiME
iTs thE feeLinG tHAt wiLL bE fadEd awAy

ITs nO uSe yOu'rE teLliNG ureSelF

tO keEp fOR yoURseLf

itS aLL tHE regreTS yOu haVE beeN findIng

aLL thE feeLIngS tHAt yoU gaVE mE

iTS jUst mabE neXt tiME....

wOOTX..

jUZ cAme BAcK hoME

phEw* my frEnds arE haviNG holidAys agaiN

fOR polY anD jCs..

dEn todaY caN cOme oUT

hMM..FIRst THIng WEnt JOGGIng At YcK STaDIUm WItH FARIs

WOOtx..I RAn 2 ROUndS ANd PANCit READixX

COz DiN Do WaRM Up..STuPId RITeX? lOlx

DeN So PAIN MY TOe..HAIya..

DeN kELsoNN caLLEd..

hE saiD will coME dowN sooN..

hmM deN go swimmInG aS usuaL

sWam a fEw lapS,reSt in tHE watEr

dEn doNE..ahAckX

anD by dAT tiME wAs stiLL too earLy tO go hoME

hmM..keLsoNN saID hE wanA go j8 gO fiND jackEt OR sweaTEr

aT 77tH streeT..bUT aLL liKE shiT!

wasTE monEY comE bishAn jUZ gO 77th stReeT thEN go bacK

hMm..dEn we arE stoniNG..dUn nOE whEr to gO..

keL sAid waNA gO towN..

me anD fariS saiD tHEr verY boriNG

eveRytiME gO towN..sOoo boREd

hMmm..aT lasT i saiD gO novEna sqUarE loR..

weNT to thIS addIdaS shOp

tHE jackEts thEre waHHXx sO niCe

bUT thE priCE iS 107 -30% discoUNT

whiCH is onlY 74 pLuS..Ok larHX

keLsoNn sAid nXt tiME we go bUY

dEn gO up aND doWn..bOReD

hMM..i weN foR a hAircuT afTEr daT

yEahX..caNs aY okAeyX larHX

bEttEr thaN last tiME

as uSuaLwa Sh anD blOW Le

i sAY i oNli seCondaRy..ahCkX

sO paY leSS..LolX..

weNT tO unitEd squAre oppOSiTe novEna squAre

hMm..wE sAw thIS peT shOp..

wooTX..i saW thiS cuTE littLE puppY

sHHOooo cuTE likE fuCk

anD looK vEry rarE..

tHE rabbiTs tHEr alSo daM cuTE lEa..

haiYA..keLsoNn oNE tiME goT take carE of rabbIT

dEn 2 montHS latEr ..diEd..pOoR thiNG..sO saD..haiXx

dEn i wenT iNTo thIS nokIA shoP

i askEd foR thE fashioN stEreO heAdseT

bUT wTF?? tHEY saY my phoNE nOT compatIbLE

anD i saID suRe oR noT? evEN thE booK saiD i can usE iT..LolX

stupID olD man..duN nOE how to saY..

hMm..walkEd arouNd tiLL tHE lasT flooR

sO creepY..weNT to thIS pathwaY

goT no oNE..darK..we exPloreD

anD camE ouT to bE aT tHE bacK oF thE shoppiNG centRe..LoLX

wooTX..hMm..inSidE thE traIn daM funnY Le..

kElsoNn saW thIS chiNEse giRl..

i tiNkf rOm yishUn seC oR wAd..

hE wenT infrOnt oF thE girL..

bUT nOT so cloSe lar..arouNd 1 metRe awaY

and smiLEd at hEr..LoLX

sHE facEd doWn..paisEh liaO..

aiyA..stuPid laR kelSonn..

end uPshE reachEd her stOp readiXx..

dIn get her nuMber alsO..LolX..wasTEd liAo

aiyA..Im so dam tireD..

frOm walkIng anD walkING and wAlkINg

mY feeT iS sO nuMB..

hMm..its beeN loNG siNCe we gO oUT

hmm..i tInk siNCe aprIL..dEn all staRT skOOL

wooTX..hMM..i gTg dowN

gO lepaK belOW hanafi's hSe

wiTh hadI,manAn,farIS,jIAn yoNG anD fadLi

yeahX..aLL brinGing tHEir laptOps..LolX

oKIEs* gtG

latErsSSSSSSSSSsss

woOtX..

im sO tiREd..

today'S iS tHE malAy weddING

anD u nOE wAd?!?

tHE brIDe's grOOm clOTheS havENT readY YEt!!

WTH!! lUCkiLY iT cAme aT 10 am plUS liKEddaT

phEW* tHE briDe wAs liKE cryiNG

coZ shE weaRiNG aLL goLD

anD onlI goT greeN

phEw* shO luckY..

hmM..bE4 daT therE wAs tHEse

twO japAneSe ladIEs

tHEy wanT to bUY thE skIRT wiTh swAroVskI

anD i saiD iTS 135 doLLarS..

tHEy talKEd tO tHE owNEr OF tHE shoP

fOR sO loNG..tHEy r leavIng fOR japan tOniTE

yeahX..LoLX..

tHE boUtiquE gettING oN iS fiNE

hMm..evErytHing fOR tHE weddING is fINE

tHEy arE jusT shOOOoo luCky

haiYA..wAd onLI..

hMM..i haD 2 hR breAk afTEr daT

i toLD mySelF tHAT i wiLL foRgeT tHE pasT

thE pasT wiLL nOT coME baCk

reaLLI..evEN thougH i regrEt

bUT i jUSt havE to continUE mY jouRnEy

nO mORe tEArs rEAdIXx

i'LL jUSt haVE to mAkE myseLf busY

to forGEt aLL theSe

beiNG loNEly wiLL briNG bacK tHE seTBAcKS

yeaHX..afTEr aLL..iVE lEt iT gO

tHIS tIME im lookiNg foRwaRD

fOR the betTEr..waHHXx

wooTX..

hmM..17 mORe daYS tO sKOoL

neW liFE,nEw fREndS,neW fuTurE

anD i wiLL nVR fORgeT mY frEndS duH! LoLX

i jUZ canT waIt

acTuaLLy skOoLiNG wiLL maKE mE foRgeT tHE pasT

anD i haVe tO conceNtraTE on mY studIeS thoUGh

i'LL dEcidEd nOt tO briNg uP thiS matTEr agaiN

anD oncE anD fOR aLL..yeAhX..

fORgeT iT tHEn..

ivE dEcidEd tO pUT thIS matTEr awAy

anD no mORE wiLL i thInk tHE flaShbaCks..

nO mORe nIghTS readIXx..

i'LL juSt haVE to apPreciATe wAd u'vE doNE fOR me aLL thIS whILE

i dUn wAna u tO be eMotIonaL anymORe

neiTHEr aNy hatrEd..

onCe agaIN..thANXx reaLLi reaLLi lOadS~~

takKAIreX nEwAy anD pLz cHEriSh uR liFe..

oNce agAin,thYX..

hMm..anD im nOT gOing inTo daT banqUeT jOB

iTs liKE kiNDa streSsfuL anD troubLesoME

arrGHXx~~heLL nO

mY frEnD aLso rEjecTEd iT readIxx

sO dO I thEn..OR elSe i wiLl BE alONe!!

haiYA..no mORe workIng larHX..

waiT till i stAblE iN mY studiEs

fOR aT lEast 2 mOntHS,

dEn i'LL go finD paRt tiME jobS

alL my fREnds liKE hadi,maNan,raihAn,farIS thEY aLL

alsO wanA go fiNd jOB sooN

hmM..we'LL gO fiND tOgetHEr thEn~

hMMm..nO biG deAL aBt todaY..

i gO downLoad tHE prograM

anD weNT to my cousIn's hSe

weT to maKE my backgrouND souNd looKs betTEr

tHE musiC dat i siNG..

wiLL be alrighT accept tHe bacgrnd sNd

IT wiLL be up sooN~ YEahX!!

hMM..my channEl 8 shOW staRt readIXx

wooTX..laterSSsss

wooTX..LolX

mY fREnd gavE uP liAo

aiYo..sO chiA lAt waNX

sO stREss..wooTX

enD uP im nOT appLyiNg for iT aLsO

bUT i gAve thE appLIcatiOn fORm readIXx

aiyO..iF anyoNE calLEd mE,dam paiSe lE..

jUZ sAy wrONg numBEr cAN readiXx

sO strEssfUL lE..

wTF? sO manY disHEs wAd lar chInesE dEn wesTerN

dEn mUZ nOE hOW to taLk,inTEracT

mUZ go cUt fisH fOR the guesTS all thIS

waHHX..kaOXx..

sO tiriNG,4 hOurS in tHEre

wahHX..dam coLd LE..

haiyA..tHiS kInd oF jOb doEsnT suIt mE readIxx

kaOX..duN waN readIXx

hMm..dEN afTEr dAt enjOy LE

*phEw~~

aS per nORmaL gO makAn aND shoppING

i bOughT tHE addidAs jacket aT citY liNk

and mY frEnd sAid hE gOT200 plUS to spenT by todAy

wooTX..so riCh lE..

anD he bougHT so many thiNGs

dEN eND up lefT 30 plUS in bANk

LolX..haiyA

reacHEd homE 11 pLuS likEddAt

tHE mrT..wooTXX

dAm pacKEd..

go mariNA bay takE bettEr

nO oNE..yeAhX

wahhXXx

haIXx..hEre i aM bLoggiNG agAin..

itS liKE my bLog is tHE onLy sourCe

fOR me tO teLL aboUt mY feELiNGs afTEr aLL

hOw cuD i iMAgiNE if i dIn havE tHE bLog

wiLL bE kaOx..thYX to meL neWay fOR uR guidanCe

haIxX..im alWayS sighING all tHE tiME

iTs liKE im dAm fuckIng hoPELeSs

my fREndS arE ignoriNG mE readIXx

yeSteRdaY mY frEnds wEnt oUt dunnOR gO wher larHX lepAk

anD oNE of tHEm,haDi asKEd mE

'wHy u dIn gO witH us?'

anD i sAid ' coZ no oNE caLLed ME!!'

and wAs daM weiRd..

oNE of tHEm plaNNed all thIS

hmM..thEY weRe wiTh jy,farIS,manaN anD hadI

and mE?? dUn havE

haIXx..whY dIn caLL mE?? wtF?

itS liKE i gEt aloNG wiTh kEL all tHosE

tHEy wiLL alwAys caLL ME ask gO oUT

oR asK hOW iaM i dOIng nOW?

tHEY arE grEAt..

espEciAllY kEL..wooTX

tHE daYS in Sec 3 anD seC 4

we sAt in fRonT..anD wiLL alWays makE joKEs

lauGh anD lauGh anD lauGh..hahAS..

we'LL alWaYS gO swimmIGN afTEr skOOL

OR i gO his hsE go jammiNG

HE pLay tHE guiTAr tHEn i siNG

haixX..nOW ivE losT thE musiC fiLE dat i rEcordEd

wAstEd..It wAs liKE perfEct

i liKE tHE soNg' tHANk yOu mUM' anD 'radIo'

thIS twO aRE my fAvs..

hMM..hE's studyIng iN andErsOn jC nOW

i jUZ cudnt imagINE hE goT 2nD top in gCe o lVl

wooTX..10 ptS foR L1R5

5 a!'s anD 1 a2..shOO gooD

hMM.aT lEAst nOW stiLL in contAct..

a fUCkiNG greAT buD..YEahX

haIXx..hOW i wiShEd tO BE as gOOd as We arE last tIme

tHE smSEs,tHE blOggiNG,thE chattINg in msN

we'D miSs eaCh oThEr badLy

u madE me caLmeD dOWn afTEr mY mUm wAs hIt wiTh cancEr

u aRE tHE oNE whU mAdE mE carrY on THE joURney oF mY liFe

nOw tHAt i cAnt sToP thinKInG oF eUu..

i jUz dUn nOE wHy ,evEn thouGh wE r fAR apaRt

aND u frEAkEd mE ouT dat tiME

i rMb dat tiME coZ evEryoNE in my famiLy wAs slEepING

anD i wAs aloNE..stiLL in mSn

sHE sAid aLL thOSe frightEniNG ghoSt thinGS

wooTX..i wAs liKE shiVEriNG

bUt actuAlly suMthiNG reaLLy hapPEneD dat tiME

bUt i dIn teLL cOZ wilL makE mE thiNk oF iT

tHE cuP i pUt on tHE tabLE suddEnly faLL dOWn

eVEn thoUGh gOt nO wiND at aLL

waLao kaOX..

haiXx..iT's JUst tHE minDsEt that wiLL go oN

i nOE thAT thIS reaLLy gOEs a vEry Long wAy

haIXx..i jUZ wAna bE as gooD aS we arE

aND i JUZ wAnnA teLl u ,

daT i miSs yOu reaLLi loaDs~

tHEsE fEw wEeKS ivE beEn coNfuSeD

sOMetIMes iF i wOndEr iF

iM betTEr oFF alONe

sO hErE i Am

GRowN uP aT 17

wILL sOMoNE tELL mE

waD iT taKEs tO be hAppY?

tHEr i aM stAndINg aLL aLonE

dID i jUSt giVe uP tHE beSt thIng i evEr haD?

yEa,hOPE iTs nOT

hMm..20 mORe dAys

tO skoOL..aT lAst

iTS bEttEr tO do sumthiNG

anD at hOMe doInG nutHInG

yEahX..phEW*

hMm..im aiNt goNA gO foR dAT fuCkinG tREatMEnt rEAdiXx

cOZ iT sUX..

hAve tO wAke uP aT 4 aM

aND leaVE foR kL

im sO laZy..

jUZ duNo whEn wiLL i reCovEr

aiYa..fORgeT iT

jUZ beAr tHE paIn iS enoUGh reAdIXx

hMm..nXt mOnth wOOTX

goOD chArlOtTE baND pErforMinG

aT sG indOOR stAdiUm

wooTX..at laSt i wILL gET tO meeT dEm'

hahAs..wooTX.taKE theIR auTOgrAphS

wooTX..caNtw Ait..iM mugGiNG haRD..LoLX

lUCkiLy kElsoNn toLd mE abT thIS thiNGy

oR elSe i wuD miSs tHE chANcE..

hmM..iTS beeN LonG..

mY blOg cElEbrAtiNG 1sT yR anniVErsAry..LoLX

bUT reALLy..i sTARtEd iN jUNE 2004..wooTX

LoLX..wAd shUD i eXpeCt tO dO?

kISs mY cOm?lOLX..aiYA

wooTX..mY chanNEl 8 shOW stARt rEAdiXx

latErSS evEryoNE..^^

hAiyA..

i jUZ dUn HAve tHE mOOd tO bLoG

LifE's sOOoo bOREDD..

iM siCk OF thIS fuCKiNG lifE..

jUZ tHInkING oF whAT i hAve dONE,

hAve beeN thInkIGn a LOtX

maKEs mY braIn as iF liKE eXplOdiNG

mAde mE sOoo dEpreSsEd..

stOP IT larHX hAyQaL!!!

pLZ mAN.. i mUZ stOp IT

i mUZ stOp thiNKiNG*

OR iT wuD makE mattErs reaLLy veRY woRsE

arrGHxX..i hOpe i wiLL stOp thINkInG iT..

whY mUZ i alWayS thInk oF yOu..hUh?! wHY?!wHy??!!

mAKiNG mY heaRt feeL tHE sorrOW

arrGHXx..i cAnt gO on LiKE tHIS

stOp IT hAyQaL!! waKe uP!!

aND dAt iM prEparEd To go tHRu a LonElY lifE

iT wiLL makE me jUZ fiNE

thInkiNG dAt my liFe iS alWays fuCkeD Up

iTS tHE tImE i HAve tO wAit

iT wiLL bE loNg fOR coVerING up

aLL tHE slAshEs aND stiTchIng iT aWay

arrGHxX..whY i HAve tO go tHRu aLL diS?! whY?!?wHy??!

noW i dOEsnT nEeD mY frEndS anymoRe

tHEy aRe hoPELEss..

livIng lOnelYx wiLL bE muCH fiNE

i'LL bE looKiNg foRwArd

fOR tHE paIn tO dissApeAR..

anD lEt natURe tAke iTs couRsE..

arRGhXx..i jUZ waNt soMEoNE tO beAt mE uP

tiLL i lOSe loTS oF bLooD anD feEL mORe pAin

i JUz wISh tO gEt iNto a fIghT

aND releAse aLL tHE hatRed in mE

yEahX..Im goNA dO thIS

tiLL iVE loST mY miNd

aND loSe oUt oF conTRoL

tHe cigAretTe stICks mY frEnd gAve mE.

aRE jUSt so tEmptING..

iM goNA staRT on IT bacK agAin

lifE's nUthiNG anD dUN makE senSe to ME anymORe

ITs bEtter tO lighT up thEm tO reliEve aLL mY strEss

tHE mIStakEs i mAdE..

tHE sorrOWs ivE goNE thRu

tHE paIN anD hardshIp ivE goNE thrU

wiLL be wAshEd awAy soOn

jUZ hopIng i wiLL forGEt IT..

nO oNE wiLL uNDerStAnD mE..

nO oNE wILL..

hAIX..

Im hAviNg a TErriBLE hEadacHE

a rEaLLy baD oNE..

mY eyEs arE spinnIng afTEr aLL thOSe filIng

stiLL havEnt atE yeT excePT brEAkfaSt

aND sooN gettIng fLu agaIN..

oh fcUk..nOt agAin..

evEn thOugh i sTAyEd at hoMe..

arrGHXx..

haiXx..

im slIppIng iN betwEen yOU

aND uR drEAms

iTS alWays U..

iTS tOo dyIng iN anothEr's arMS

aND whY i HAd to tRy IT

if thIS iS whAt it tAkEs

jUSt tO lIe iN mY mistAkes

cuZ tHis nighTS i tHinK maybE

tHAt i'LL mISs U

iTs aLwayS U iN mY drEAms

aND i Was tHinkING*

whAt i wAs thInkING*

iT doesnT gEt me anyWhere...

aND i Want tO sPEaK tHEsE wordS

aND accEpt sUmdAy,sUmhoW

aS tHE woRds tHAt wIll haNG fRom

aND i dOnt waNNa spEak tHEsE woRdS

hAixX..cAuSE i dUn waNNa mAke tHinGS anY worSe

aYe yAr!!

wOKe uP aT 8 pLus lIkEddaT

wooTX..sO earLy..

feeL lIKe Im bEttEr fOR noW..

recOvErinG..

tHE mEdiCatIon wAs dAm bLoodY effEctiVE

LoLX..bUT 2 mORe tO gO.hAix..

sUmoRe sO fAR awAY..

lATEr gOing to stArt sORtiNG oUT mY mUm's pAperS

HAix..fIlINg anD filINg..

bOreD..dAd's nAggiNG aT mE

aiYo..stREss.

sORtiNG oUT bY alPhabEticAL ordER..

hmM..nVm..

26 mORe dAYs tO skOOL..wOOtX

NEw lIfe,nEw fRieNDS,NEw begInnING

i HAte tHIS parT..

bUT Ive gOT tO woRk hArd tHiS tIMe

fOR 2 yRs..dEn gO To poLY fOR 1 YR

dEn gET mY diPLoMA..wooTX

aND i gOT a fUCkin' courSe

iTS caLLEd 'biOcHEmicAl tEchnOloGy'

wooTX..soUNds sO scARy..

aND tHE plACe alSo dAM fAR

aT siMEi tHEre beSide eXpO

hAIx...

aLL mY fREnds sTARteD skOOl rEAdIXx

dIFferENt wAYs To lEad..

hMmM..

anD yestErdAy MY mUm bOughT fOR mE oLD chANg kee foOD

aND gUeSS wAd?!? i MAde a dAm fuCKing mIStakE

iNsidE gOT cucUmBEr whICh i cAnnOT eAT iT

aND i aTE iT..aiyOX

dUn nOE larHX..i gOT fREe piTA dUn nOE lArhx wAd shIT

afTEr i wrOte tHE surVEy foRm

haIX..onLiNE tIll nOW

thE sAme Old pPl wHu r alWAys oNliNE

boRinG..bORed!..bORed!

hAiyA..

wHAckXXXx

aYE yAr!

jUZ cAme bAck hOme

doNE lOtS anD loTs oF admIn stuFF

at mY mUM's shOp

stILL gOT 2 mORe fiLEs to gO

i bRoughT hOME tHEm

tmR wIll bE doIng IT..

mY dAd sAId i beTter dO suM woRk

dEn dO nUThIng aT hoME

jUZ tHE fiLinG stuFfs aLL soRts lArhX..

hMm..faLL asLeeP arOunD 3 pLus lIKEddaT

aT tHE shoP..wooTX

woKE uP at 6 pLUS 3hRs oF nAp

mY dAd cAme,nAggEd aT mE

aiyOX..dEn stARt baCk tHE filIng..

tmR wiLL bE stAyiNG aT hoME

anD NO oUtsIDe foOD

strEss..wOOtX

lAteRRS..

hAiX..iM so tIReD..

jUx cAme bAck fRom kL jUX nOW

a WHoLE dAY tRip fRom yEsteRday..

i WenT fOR tHE tREAtmEnt

sAMe fOR mY mUm tOOs..

nOW i cAnt eAt sEAfOOd stuFfs anD chIlli

cOZ wiLL affEct mY coNditIoN..

sAme fOR my muMs tOOs..

hAIx..

i HAve tO go fOR 3 tImeS..

bUt wIll bE MAyb thIS thUrS and nXt mOndAy..

nVm..bUt i'LL rECoVEr sOon..=D

hMm..mY cousIn alSO follOWeD

wiTh hEr bF..

hAIx he'S so siCk

keEp coUghING anD couGhING

aND u nOE laRHX..

vEry mUShy iN thE caR..

aiyOX..

mORe aND mORe malaYs

aRE marrYinG chInesE pPL nOWadAYs

lIKe mY couSin uNDer mY dAd's sIDe

aLL oF thEm aRE marriEd to a cHineSe

aiYoX..bUt tHEy conVErtEd larHX..

hMm..28 moRe dAYs tO stArt skOOL

cAnt wAit..in fAct Im bUiLDinG uP my mEmoRy agAIn.

yEAhX..phEw~

aND aLL mY stAtionarIEs dUn nOE whEre liAoX

mUZ gO seArch..aiyOX..

hAVe tO gO queeNSwAy oNE dAy

to bUy dAT mIZ29 bAG

cOZ booKEd rEAdi..

hMm..i jUSt hAve to leAvE evEryThiNG agAin..
fOR tHe secOnd time,bEen iNtO thIS sitUAtiON
hAIx..fORgET iT..
jUx hAve tO forGEt IT..
iTS jUSt pOIntlEss..

hErE I aM bLogGiNG agAIn..

WoKE uP eArLy tOdAY 9Am LIkeDDAt

hMm..wEnt tO s'poRe eXpo yEstErdAY

sEe tHE bRidAL weddIng exhIbiTion

sO paCkEd..

YA dAa yA dAA~

dEn eatIo aT simPAng bEdok

rEAchEd hOmE arOund 11 pLUs likedDAt

aiyOX..my shOuldEr dAm cramp lIkE wAd siAlx

weNT swimMing dat tIme afTEr jOgging

i tEAchEd hAdi hOW to sWIm

aHAckX..HE dun nOE hOW tO sWim

anD me aNd mAnaN wAs lauGhiNG awAy

aiYA..bUT me And mAnaN manAgED to tEAch hIm tHE basiC

dEn slAckEd tIll 9pM

wAhhX..sO cAlm siAlx

nO oNE tHEre

hMm..tiLL nOW aiYOX.so pAin

i rAn tHree roUnds oF tHE stAdiUm

dEn pAnciT..k.O siAlx

stAminA likE fuCk siAlx

hAiX..

hMm..itS bEeN dAys pAssiNG bY..

whIch i stILL kEep tHinKIng

iTS liKe ive bEen fAR apaRT fROm u

bUt iT wILL nOT gEt toO faR apArt

HAix..Im jUx cOnfuSed on wAd IS hapPEninG noW..

hMm..jUZ cAme bAck hOme

aT LAst,TooK mY O LvL cErtIfiCate

wOoTX..sO bAd..bUt Ok lArhX

Its jUSt scIEncE dAT affECts mE

hMm..THE skOOL wAs iN sILEncE

dEN wAn To Go cAnTeeN

aLL cLOseD

hAIx..

dEn wEn tO kFc

My fREnd wAs dAM hUngRY

bUt i aTE a fULL meAL

sIAlx..i aM sO fULL

hMm..iM goIng oUt agAIn

tO yCk wiTh haDi aND manAn

Im gOINg jOggING aT tHE sTAdiUM

mAnaN Went tO gYm

I hAte tRAinING in tHE gYm siALx

aiYoX..bUt nVm

hMm..lAterSS..

chIaO~

wOoTX..

Im sTArtIng sKooL oN 20 jUne

sOon,hMm..1 mOrE mOnTh tO sLAcK

tHis tImE nEw wORLD,NEw fRiEndS

hMm..i mIssEd skOOL..ReALLy..

jUst tHosE dAys..

eSpecIALLy tHE nuISanCe

ANd LAughTErs iN cLasS..

yEaHX..i mISsEd iT

nOW eVEryOne aRE sPLiT uP..

tURnING tO diFFerEnt dIrECtIoNS

aND wAd fUckINg coURsE i tOok..

bIocHEmiCal TEchnOloGy..hAix

nvm..Im rEtAkiNG priVAte O iN scieNCe aND enGlish

And stUDyinG iN siMEi nItEC..

dAM fuCkin' fAr LE..hAIx

aND i LiVEd In sembAwAng

wOoTX..anD tHE skOoL in sIMei

wAhhX..sTReSS LiaO..

nGEe aNn PoLy iS fULL

sO baD luCkx tHIS yeAr..

i CanT gET In tO tHE coUrsE i wANt..

bUt hEy! afTEr sImei nITEc fOR 2 yRS

dEn i wiLL gO to a pOLy fOR 1 yR

stIll tHE sAme aHAcKX..

hMm..jUz nOW meeT uP

wItH haDi,mAnaN anD tKt

tAlkEd aND talKEd

aND i tinK dAT wUD bE tHE lAst tIMe

i Will MEet tHEm

yEAHX..tMR gOIng To mY fORmer skOOL

tAke mY offICiaL O lVL cErtIfICaTE

aT LAst..pHew~ i cOMplEted The O lVLs

pHEw~aHAcKX

hMm..iM oVErcOMiNG iT..

sOoN..wiLL i foRgeT IT

YArHX..nO mORe nIghTS

nO mORe paIn

aND jUZ nOW mY fREnd asKEd ME

abT mE..

i tInk hIS eX sAw mY bLog

wAhhx..dUn nOE laRHX..

i jUz sAy wAd is riGht..

iTS jUSt a mISundErstANdING

hMM..jUZ nUtHiNG..

wAd oNLi sIAlX..

aLL nOE wHAt iS haPPEnInG sIALx

hmM..NvM..

lAteRRSss..

I keeP wRitInG, taLkiNG and pLanNinG,
bUt eVerytHinG iS cHAngIng.
I kNow whAT tO do buT nO oNe dOEs iT.
NoW tHiS tImE hAs paSsED aND fuLL oF reGreT.
TwO iN mY heArT hAvE lEfT mE a wHiLE, i sTanD aLoNE.
WhEn tHEy gEt bAcK, iT wOnT bE tHE sAmE...

My LiFE,yOu'VE aLwAys bEeN tHErE

MovIng oN..tHe tIme hAs rUn oUT

WishIng tHE cLoCk woULd sTAnd sTiLL

WasTing onCe agAin,

oNcE LivEd aS fRieNDs..

As tIme pAssEs bY,

rEgrETs fOR tHE rESt oF mY LifE

tHE oNEs wHo I cOnfiDE...

NevEr wiLL i fORgeT u..

aND aLL tHE memOrieS pAsT

So rAreLy i gEt tO seE ur fAce

gRowiNg,I lOOked tO u

iN gUidAnce..

I kneW tHAt tIme wOuLD kIll

but iT iS stIll clOSe..

sOmetImeS LifE iS aLtEreD

wOnT tURn oUt riGht,

cAnt tURn oUt riGht..

tHinGS aRe bOunD tO chAnGE

fATE mIsundErstOod

DArK wiLL turN iNto LigHT

iN tIme,i'll bE alRighT

And noW...

I miSsEd tHE memOriEx,

iN skoOL daYS..

hOW i tREAsuRE iT

tHe lauGhtEr aND soRROWs

nOW..aLL aRE sPLit Up

tuRnINg tO diFFErenT fuTures

tHere'S manY thiNgs u cAn nvR foRgeT

i nvR imAgINed mY LifE cOuLd tUrN oUt tHis wAy..

cOZ tHIs iS noT tHE enD oF me yEt..

LefT tHE chIldhOOD,

LefT tHE skOoL daYS,

LefT tHE mEmoriEx,

LefT tHE sOrroWs,

LEft tHE goOD tImes iN thE pasT

Im mOviNg oN onCe agAin..

To sTArT LiFE afrESh..

tHis tIme...

i tReasure tHE LifE i hAd..

tO LivE LifE wiTh..

sORroWs aND hAppiNEss

aND im gOna tAke tHIS..

oncE moRe...

tHAnk U aLL..

hUggS ("v")

:: tHE sTorY nVr eNds::

Ive gone alone,

Took all my strength

But ive made the change

Building up,

Inside of me

Dont mourn for me

You're not the one to place the blame

Sorrow,sank deep inside my blood

All the ones around me,

I cared for and most of all

I loved..

But i cant see myself that way

Please dont forget me...

No more breath inside of me

No more nights,

No more pain,

Essence left my heart.....

::Left remembering what it is like:

Haix..

It's just a dream for me..

All the things that happened

Is just a reality..

Now that uve gone away,

Everything changed..

And when im gone,

Everything will be alright..

No more breath inside of me

No more nights,no more pain..

Will be justified..

You'll be the first one to approach to share

And...

Just a thanks from me

Once again,thank you very much

Hope u'll not be hurtx again

Or the story will have to come an end

U takkaireX kx..

hUggs hUggs..

:

Cry alone,

Ive gone away

Ive gone alone,

Took all my strength

But ive made the chance

I wont see you again

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood

All the ones around me

I cared for and most of all I loved

But I cant see myself that way

Please dont forget me

So far away,Im gone

Make this last forever

Left remembering what it is like

Once again,thyx for everything

Really a big thyx for consoling me,

Especially abt my mum..

Its no use for me to cry

I have to control myself

The days of laughter and hatred..

Will remain in myself..

Im not fated..

Once again,

Im happy for you..

The miracle that is not expected

Is becoming an illusion

And at least..

You let me through ur life

And u noe wad?

Ure a special girl to me

U are the girl that filled up my life

U made me smilex

This time,Ive lost her

And never will it happen again

You are just special to me..

Thank you once again..

I hope not to see you being hurt again

And life have to go on..

You dont have to be confused

Just go for it and no restrictions

And for me...

I'll always remember you

Plz dont forget me..

Takkairex..

huggs("v")