hAiXx..sKooL suX toDay

iTS liKE evEryonE in mY clAss anD the lecTUrers..

aLL askIng mE whY todAy im so difEreNt

i Juz sAId nuTHing..

aND im jUZ so dAM quiEt todAy..

ivE goT no mooD siNCe thIS mornIng i woKE up

iVE bEen thiNkiNG baCk oF whAt wiLL happEN neXt

iTS liKE im tIred oF thiNKig abt aLL thiS

fOR monThs anD monThs..

im JUZ prayIng haRD dAt my muM's condItion wiLL imPRoVe

aND no fuCkiNG radiOtheraphy oR chemOtharapY shIt

it wiLL ruiN mY mum's HEalth anD worSer liKE beiNG weakEr

i jUZ wanA bE liKE whaT mY famiLy useD to BE last tiME

nOW..itS as iF likE mY dad talKS rarelY and go hoME slEep

mY dad'S compAny iS goiNG to clOSe dowN

maybE a fEw weeKS latEr,mY dad wiLL gET retrEnchEd

arrGhhX..wHY mUZ dIS happEn?!?

eVErydaY go tO skOOL..alwAYs thINk abT aLL thIS

foRciNG myseLF to BE buSy is likE mAkiNG myseLF moRe woRsE

haIXx..i reallY dun waNa talK abt thIS mattEr anymORe

bUt it wiLL camE to mY miNd alwaYS

mY 3rD brotHEr saW my dAd criEd fOR the firST timE in hiS rooM

my dad's siSter HAve jUSt pasSed awAy last fEw monTHS

aND thiNkIng a loTx abT his jOb and My mUm

thIS iS the woRst and woRst feeLing i gOT

arrGHhx..ivE gotA makE myselF busY and forgET all thiS till 20 juLy

i NEed to oVErcoME all dIS

can suMoNE teLL mE hOW?!?

arrGHHxX..