2 more days to
laboratory exam.
4 more days to
general microbio exam.

fuuhhhhhh.
i don't know whether i can make it.
if i were to fail,
i have to repeat for one FULL year
omg.

crackkkk my brainn yesterday
at yck cc.
studied there.
only 2 hrs only.
couldn't absorbed any longer.

and also btw,
yesterday i saved a girl's life.
from being hit by a speeding car.
felt so paiseh yesterday.
it was like a tv drama;
seriously.
lol.

kkkkkkkkk,
gtg breakfast now.
laterssssssssss.

This morning.
I saw a micro-organism
in the bathroom.

While i was bathing,
there's this amoeba thing,

vibrat-ing,
shak-ing,
at a very fast speed.

omg.
I used the spray shooter
to shoot it down the drain.

If only i could take a picture of it.
wasteddddd.
its definitely real.

what could it be.
white-greyish colour.
size of a whole thumb.

And also,
the other day,
a small cockroach dropped
on top of my head.
You can imagine wads the next
feeling/moment i'm going to react.

Behave like a crazy mad cow.
and feeling sooo uneasy
for that minutes or so.

That cockroach dropped on my head,
wiggle thru my neck.
and MANAGED to get in my body.
wtf.

i become siao for a moment.
LOL.

kayyyysss.
6 more days to exam.
laboratory maths.
and 8 more days to
general microbiology.

crackkkkkkkkk my brainnnn.
=X

lols.
just embed this song to my blog,
cracked,rusty cold hearts.

composed by me.
vocals + guitar was me.
and the rhythm was my third brother.

nothing better to do,
since i went home early today.
hahs.

=))

kayyss.
gotta go study for my
analytical chem paper tomorrow.

laterssss.

it feels so lazy to blog,
day by day.

updates.
today,
went jammin' at usual place.
miracle-ly,
we get to play the full song of
jujur by radja.
and also
promise by matchbook romance.

lols.
on-that-spot we learned the tabs.
was like 3 hrs plus.
hehs.

two days back.
went to escape theme park
in our school uniform
lols!
was ohkae but,
most of the rides are under maintenance.
overall, was pretty tired
just by the queueing up for the rides.
hahs.

school.
general micro phase test DONE.
lab safety teary test DONE.
laboratory maths teary test DONE.
now left with,
molecular bio practical assignment tmr,
and analytical chem on friday.

woots.
4 tests this week.
27th march would be the real exam.
and also other subsequent exams.
phew~~ -_-"""

oh ya.
i'm always late for school EVERYDAY.
i woke up at 6.20 or 6.30.
which is very late.

i couldnt wake up like last time anymore.
even though there are 2 alarm clocks.
-__-"

had a veryy long sleep today.

yesterday,
went shopping with kel.

so, the last time i shopped
was like few months back.
hehs.

i even don't know how much i spent in all
and also,
that whole day.
i was spending a lot on water.
lols.

went bugis,
bought 3 shirts.
the adidas shop no more designs
all the plain ones.
they said that nxt month they will
import new ones. =)

took the train back to lavender.
went to beach road.
ate there.

finding the slipper i wanted
but no more stock already.
kel bought the other type of slipper.

soon after that,
went to peninsula plaza.
oh ya.
met jianyong also,
with his band friends.

now there are more than 3 jamming centres
in peninsula plaza.
the new ones at basement.

went home after that.
changed.

went out again.
for pre-wedding dinner,
for those who can't make it on the actual day,
which is today.

the food is dammmm nice.
langkawi style.
lols.

back home ard 12 am plus.
did some maintenace on my computer.
defrag/scandisk/registry check/blah3..

2am,
slept.

school's short today.
changed after reached home.

cut my hair.
and went swimming.

swimming gives u broad shoulders.
lols. =)

home after that.

whole day with the guitar,
playing new songs.

now, i don;t know what computers
meant to me anymore.

its just getting me bored.
i want my 'LAJI' program!!
arrhhggh.
=X

I can't help myself
to be felt like this again.

I'm starting to lose confidence
if i were to start all over again.

to devote,
to commit,
all back from the beginning.

I'm tired,
I'm worn out.

I don't know how much time
i have to wait again,
for me to realise again.

for that miracle
i do hope so...

my phone price have dropped drastically
if i would to sell,
it would be $ 160 minimum.
max i saw is $250.

that if it is in ultra super good condition.
mine,
scratches here and there.

my maid buying my phone soon.
for $200.

i don't know what phone im gonna buy
after that.

stick with nokia?
maybe N70?
or maybe the new recent samsung?

sick today.
terrible flu.
fever in and out,
means a while have fever,
a while no fever.

the coughs terrible.
cudn't go to doctor to take mc.
mum says this few months shop less business.

so i would just treat it as im absent.

whole day im on the bed.
feels so weak.
at least on the bed,
i learnt a few songs.
asked my brother to print the chords out.

i'm so happy i can play qing fei de yi
by harlem yu.
8 chords.
i almost got the chinese lyrics sorted out.
soon.

my fingers also dunoe why.
it teared off again.
to third layer,
so painful.

now i have 2 guitars at home,
its just nice.
coz when playing a song,
the other guitar can play as the rhythm
or the bass.

especially the song
'on nadya'.
nice.

kayyys.
im very hungry now.
and tired+weak now.

laterssss.

tired;
terrible sore throat.
everytime i swallow my own saliva,
ouchie-wouchies.

jammed after school today.
at ket's house.
at least saved money by
not going to jamming centers.

ket's house is dam bloody big.
and the jamming room is the size
of a normal living room.

3 hrs non-stop.
with my left fingers teared off.
that's why i got the dang sore throat.
its better now,
after rushing to buy the throat syrup.

i guess i have to make everyday a day,
fully filled up,
and not wasting time.
in order not to think about mum's case,
again and again.

staying at home alone,
shudnt be no more.

hmm.
the gym's workout last two days,
is still unbearable.
the cramps, aches,
on my stomache,chest and arms.

oh ya,
tmr will be the posting results.
if im gonna get to s'pore poly,
maybe i will have to go to there.
if i'm gonna get in temasek poly,
maybe i will continue in ite.

kayyssss,
tats all for today.



i think you've made that decision
maybe i should give up for now;
and break the promise in between.
will be missing you...

I swear he will die a terrible death.
I swear he will get cursed.

I wonder how much he's gonna suffer.
The price you have to pay for us,
for making situations in my family hard.

You see urself.
Your face had become fucking black.
Just because of the
outrageous bad deeds u have done.

Become blacker
Releasing back all those hardship to you back.

You think aiming my mum is a benefit rite?
You think making the boutique's business down good rite?
Wad for all these?
Wad's the outcome?
HELL you go.

Go and die larh.
I don't want to see your face anymore.
And make sure you go to hell.
Stupid old,fagged, old man.

Oh ya,
he's a bapuk btw.

The past keeps rekindling on me
again.
The same thing happened last time,
back from the start
back like april 2005.

Though time recovers as days pass by,
Trying to close the last wounds
The feeling of reminiscing back to that state
unbearable again.

How i wished to talk to you again,
How i wished i could share the problems
with you again,
like we used to do last time.

I don't want to disturb of what ure doing now
You're schooling, and having major exams this year.

Even with silence throughout the months,
Maybe its just for own good.

Maybe i've got to keep to myself,
this time.

Things have to be done fast,
the tianxian treatments coming up,
hope if it works.

Even if going to radiation process,
i won't even let.
Its gonna be painful consequences.

Hoping that this medicine would work,
from this website.
http://www.tianxian.com

seeing the testimonials,
really made me feel better.
BUT.

it costs 600~800++ US dollars.
and its for real.
omg so ex.

dad's still doing the surveying
in case this is fake.

i've really thought that everything is over,
making this year a new resolution.
and it will be over soon.
soon.

fuck off of ur stupid doings,
stupid whereabouts.
to and fro.

what's the benefit of killing people,
without being caught?
and becoming proud.

nothing,
no upright-ness.

the only thing i'm waiting,
for all these to be over..

and not,
coming back.

I saw mum struggling again
in trying to shrunk back the tumor.

but failed this time.
the person who treats mum
have left,
and gone missing in batam.

it was ohkae the other day,
all the cancer cells have fade off
but, this time
that fucking man keeps on trying
on my mum using his stupid,
some kind of thailand black magic,
making the family suffer too much.

i've thought its all over already,
dad had recovered last month.
after the treatment.

now's my mum's turn again.
few more weeks,
its gonna start to spread
to my mum's brain.
making more fatal.


i don't know why
he must be jealous of us.
jealous of my mum's boutique,
making us lose business.

i sucked,
im stupid.
i did nothing to help.

"...doctor said radiation would be the most
method but survival rate would be 15% only
with the age...."

what about the disastrous side effects?..

sighhsss.

Carry me to the shoreline
Bury me in the sand;
into the waves

Walk me across the water
And maybe you'll understand

Once the stone
You're crawling under
Is lifted off your shoulders

Once the cloud that's raining
Over your head disappears

The noise that you'll hear
Is the crashing down of hollow years

Of silence..

went swimming today
after school.

but a while.
jammed after that.

learned
mimpi yang sempurna by peterpan,
bintang di surga

also
wounds by good charlotte

recorded them'
kekek.
hahas.

For all this time I have tried
to find something else.

I tried my hardest, honestly.
I tried all I could.

But I couldn't find anything else.
I am in the same place as that where I left you.

It's always like in that dream.
Some close to getting everything,
yet so far,

away where it had left behind..

I did the encryption,

got that arse-hole's stats.

IP Address 222.165.72.211

Country Singapore

Region Singapore, North Zone

City Singapore

ISP: Starhub Cable Vision Ltd

Returning Visits 1

Visit Length 5 mins 34 secs

VISITOR SYSTEM SPECS

Browser MSIE 6.0 [internet explorer]

Operating System Windows XP

Resolution 1024x768

Javascript Enabled

19th February 2006 12:15:27 PM

19th February 2006 12:17:14 PM

19th February 2006 12:20:51 PM

19th February 2006 12:21:01 PM


that dam arse-hole.
like i care like that.
zZzzZzZz.

dead tired.

after creating the skin
which Taufan wanted.

very uber-scary theme.
using my photo-shop skills.

phew~

its almost done.
i took like one WHOLE day.

did some at his hse
and he came over my hse
to download the photo-shop brushes.

my brain gonna explode.


making me more addicted
to create blogskins.
3 blogskins done in a row this 2 weeks.
my, my.
-_-"

just in time
i remembered about JAE

i applied at 5.18pm
luckkyy sak.

it's supposed to close at 4pm.

so 5 mins after i applied,
went back to the website.

it says.
'Sry, Jae application has closed down"

phewww~~