You would always be the one
who listens to my deepest inquisitions.
Mending all the pieces of the life i had before..






I finally blog again.
Kays, these one month of holiday im having,
wouldnt be a good one unlike my past holidays.
I just dont know why.
Few days rotting at home..=.=


I just had a gathering with my classmates yesterday
Its like a bbq pit but it isnt
and these time round,
we bring our own food.
Though there are so much food leftover in the end.
Lol.
We played soccer and some did fishing =)



Talking about these,
maybe this is the last gathering we will be having.
No more lectures, tests and exams.
Attachment is coming soon.
Graduation is near soon
and we are reaching the peak soon.

In fact, we are all gonna
go on our separate ways after that..
Some will go poly, ns or even start working.
And go on ur separate ways...
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Sometimes i do wonder,
What would my life become after i finished my education..
after i did my ns..
after i got a stable job..

Things will change?.....





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I applied for a job at Night Safari,
one of the restaurants there.
Was not my kind of place.
So well...

And yesterday my brother helped me
filled up the form for application for a job
at ToysR'Us @ Suntec City.
Hope i will receive a call from them soon.
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Talking about my exams,
ya, they are over.
And the results will be up on the 4th of Oct.
Hope i could pass my this module.
Hopefullyy....


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I missed Late Grandma's loads,
especially all her naggings..
Though i feel pissed sumtimes,
But it sometimes make me realise now
some of them do make sense and how i missed her a lot...


I missed Late Zac loads toos..
I missed all her rantings esp about the computer,
whenever her brother download things that have spyware etc
which would cause all the lagging..
I still remember there was one time she called me
saying that her msn cant get thru and cant troubleshoot
and start cursing her brother non stop..
'nk masuk msn die kate trouble shoot..how leh? cekik dara punye budak eh..'





Its been 2 months plus when they left..
Haizzz..
I still dream of them whenever the time comes.
And i woke up, thinking back about the past..
thinking the happiness they had..
I cried when i really think too much of them.

And it will still leave a big scar on me and the others..


Haiz.. its all over..
They are actually gone....... forever.......
And only i could do,
is to say my prayers to them.....



I've never felt so low in my life,
never experienced such a critical blow in my life, ever.
The pain is excruciating; unimaginable agony.
Its worse, to think that the very words I preached
to others endlessly; faith and hope, would come back and haunt me.
The irony, the irony. haizz..


Thank You.

To the people who stood by me and supporting me in every possible manner.



Life do come and go..
Life is incredible..
We thought they would stay with us forever
especially the ones with loved..
But its just a thought..
They all go away without a trace,
without saying any last words..


Some things are better left unsaid,
And all I have are lasting dreams,
Our word's worth more this time it seems...